I don't even really kno where I stand with the world anymore. I think that I've been so outta my head, fucked up, that I've "forgotten" to go to college, for two years ( Read more... )

I knew I'd forget to credit Give a Kiss for my icon, so I made it the title. Laugh out loud with me now. It's been like three weeks since I updated, but I've been a busy busy bee. Ryan is staying with me and Tony, so now Tony and Ryan want to do the room mate thing and so I guess we're going to get a bigger place. I'm not sure how I feel about that ( Read more... )

On Tuesday, I was ready to leave Tony. If only for just a night. I can't imagine my life without him, but it's getting tough not having our own space. We argue over the stupidest things sometimes, and it usually feels like I'm picking fights, but I can't help it. I know it's not all his fault, it's just that I have a restless nature. We're falling ( Read more... )

Ok so as I walk ino the library I see this old man with crazy gray crazy long hair, sprawled out leaned back in a chair with his mouth open, sleeping away. Actually, I'm not sure he's even alive, but I'm not going to get right up to his mouth to see if he's still breathing. The librarians can handle all that jazz. I'm sitting on Myspace per usual, ( Read more... )

Ok, so i got home from work, and because I always leave the TV on so a potential burglar thinks some one is home, Obama was just being sworn in when I walked in the door ( Read more... )

Ok, So this morning, I got out of bed, put on my uniform and did my hair for work. I sit down to smoke a cigarette, and realize, I don't have a lighter. I stand up to go look for one, and a wave of nausea hits me so hard, I barely make it to the toilet. (I know there is no pregnancy though, my Aunt Ruby left two days ago, lol.) After that, I still ( Read more... )

So, I've been working at Dunkin now since Monday, and so far, I totally love it. (And I haven't even eaten a single donut yet!) But I get up everyday at 445 (Ungodly, I know) and I (literally) push Tony off of me, and out of bed, and get ready for my day. (And since I'm up that early, there is usually NO fekking way that I am going to do much more ( Read more... )

I'm zooming through the web, and does it seem to you like it's getting suckier? Yeah, the web is definitely getting suckier. Because I used to be able to amuse myself for a few hours, even at the library computers, (where there are limitless amount of blocked sites), and now, I just can't. There aren't as many things on the net anymore, that I ( Read more... )

Sometimes there are days where I need to talk. I need to spill. I feel words in my mouth, raging forward, trying to explode into the air. Days I just need to tell.

Then there are days like today. I don't want to talk. I don't want to tell, I just want to sit here quietly and watch you. Try to figure you out, try to figure me out, try to figure the ( Read more... )

and then there are days. This isn't really a bad day, it's just awfully slow. Bleh. Boooring.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. What am I going to wear?!  /panics... I FORGOT! I'm meeting Tony's like WHOLE family tomorrow. For the first time. I've met his mother before, had dinner and played board games, that sort of thing. But I'm really nervous about his ( Read more... )