Fic: Steady As She Goes (76/86), blue cortina, dakfinv

[dakfinv]

Title: Steady As She Goes (76/86)
Author: dak
Word Count: 1523 this part; [135,543 overall]
Summary for Whole: After an accidental shooting at the station, Gene struggles to keep his team from tearing themselves apart while his and Sam's friendship is pushed to the limits.
Summary this Part: Ray's first day as DI.
Rating: still Blue-ish Cortina, uhm,

Comments

Here comes the babbling...

[jexxer]

Oh...oh, you...you...are...GOOD!

This one...god, I can't even cry, I'm actually laughing, here! That laugh that comes when you're just too shocked to react any other way. Oh, you are GOOD, my dear! That being said: SAMMY! NOOOOOOO! What were those stupid 2006 doctors doing?! Electroshock?! (*shudders*) That's one of those psychiatric treatments that just freak me the hell out.

(*re-reads the last part*)

Ok, now I'm tearing up. Normally, Childlike!Sam gives me a fuzzy happy feeling, but now...you broke him. He's broken and regressed and it hit like a solid fist of angst to the gut. It started at Rathbone, but it just struck full-force as soon as I reached, "Coppers always lied to Sammy, even if they didn’t mean to." (and I was just thinking about that chapter before I read this!) The whole exchange between Gene and Sammy (because I can't properly think of him as "Sam" while he's in this state) - forget the broom, forget the glue, my heart is now a fine powder. The whole team/family is crumbling to pieces. I...well,

Re: Here comes the babbling...

[jexxer]

*should NOT have read Bushwhacked first, I meant.

Re: Here comes the babbling...

[dakfinv]

Thank you! If you like childlike!Sam here, you'll love him in the next part. ;) Or not.

Well, I don't know how to fix your heart from a powder to a normal state. You might need a transplant. Or hug tiem.

(I always have to find fluff after posting a new chapter because what I'm doing to poor Sammy always makes me depressed. And yet I keep doing it...Why??)

[jpgr]

Holy moly! Damn, but this was fantabulous! I second the comment of claustrophobia in that one scene. I also can picture a dejected a lost Sam sitting there realizing that Gene lied to him. Oh, and you have Gene apologize again! That ending is what go me, though.

There was nothing in the world but him and Gene and the paper and the pen. Everything else was gone. Nothing else mattered.

Gene said he wanted to go with him but he couldn’t. He’d come by later. Two other men came and helped him leave. He got to take his jacket with him.

“Always knew it were goin’ to end like this,” Ray looked away. Chris shoved him against a filing cabinet and ran out of the room. Annie, eyes brimming with tears, excused herself and cried in the ladies’ toilets.

“It’s not over,” Gene said to no one. To everyone. He went into his office, closed the blinds, and drank.

[dakfinv]

Thank you! Glad you liked. :) I was a bit worried about the Sam/Rathbone scene, so I'm very happy it provoked such a feeling for you.

[sytaxia]

Oh my word, I did NOT see this coming, not from a million miles away, and this was just shattering... So now Sam is not only under Ray, but the super has had him removed from the force, and he had a full-scale breakdown in front of everyone...

This does not bode well, and I am so incredibly worried at this point...

Great chapter, and another roller coaster of tension and angst and fright all around; spectacular job!

[dakfinv]

Muahaha. My evilness knows no bounds. Or I just really need professional help.

Thank you!!

[avalon_isle]

what they all said! You have me on tenderhooks wondering what's going to happen to poor sammy now!

[dakfinv]

Thank you! I'm glad I'm still able to keep you in suspense. :)

[violateviolet]

Fuck, that was so heartbreaking...I wanted to cry.

Four year old Sammy in 1973.

[dakfinv]

Thank you! I think. ;)