I will wonder for the rest of my life how it's possible to love someone so intensely, so loyally, and for so long, and get absolutely nothing in return. There is nothing in the books that prepares you for that kind of love. The unrequitted kind.

I put too much of myself into the things I do and the people I care about. When it all falls apart, these little bits and pieces of me go everywhere and some of them get lost (under the night stand, between the carpet and the door, tracked out on your shoes when you go). I can't help it, I want it to be right every time, but it's never right, it's ( Read more... )

When life gives you lemons.. hmm.

Make a list of things that are good. I can do that.

- I will have a shiny new(er) car before I leave, which is good because Giacadeux is slowly going to car heaven. Or hell. Deux was a bitch, she kind of deserves to go to car hell.
- Feif is all caught up on shots, flea meds, etc, which cost me a fortune and a half, ( Read more... )

"I am working on my new year's resolution. I am thinking big and ignoring boundaries. I am making this the first year of my life that I live freely and never say no to myself ( Read more... )

No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ( Read more... )

[You]
Baby will you build me the barbie mansion? Or the one from Clueless?
EVERYTHING IN PINK!

[Chris Mclain]
mmmm how about one room in the mansion? but not the whole mansion lol

[You]
Awww noo, it has to be the whole thing. Even the stucco has to be pink.
The grout in the tiles, pink
The little hook thing that holds the ceiling fans, that too

[Chris ( Read more... )

I wish I was 14 again. I wish I had never let myself get out of shape or gain weight. I wish I had treated some people better. I wish I hadn't treated some people so well. I wish I'd never stayed in NY past 18. I wish I hadn't gone back to school this semester. I wish my parents didn't hate each other. I wish I still had all of the money I spent on ( Read more... )

Good things ( Read more... )

things i learned today ( Read more... )

everything I do blows up in my face eventually.