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A/N: An old drabble. Originally posted on Tumblr.
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, inside his shared room with Yoochun. The cream walls reflect the sunlight coming from the open windows. Jaejoong is almost comforted. Except for the part where he just time traveled. What the hell?
Scared, he gets up gingerly and puts on his battered house slippers. He clearly remembers how he threw away the exact pair back in March 2009. What the hell?
He tiptoes to the living room and finds Yunho sitting on the couch, attention completely focused on the pile of papers on his lap. Jaejoong almost melts at the sight but he doesn’t because this Yunho is three years younger and Jaejoong remembers waking up to this very scene three years ago.
Jaejoong faints.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, staring up at a worried, 22-year old Yunho.
“Jaejoong-ah, are you okay?” 22-year old Yunho says. “You fainted in the living room.”
Jaejoong blinks and he tackles Yunho into a fierce hug. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry…” He mumbles against 22-year old Yunho’s neck. He breathes in Yunho’s cologne and he feels tears stinging the back of his eyes.
“What’s wrong Jaejoong-ah?” Yunho asks, holding his lover close until he’s nearly seated on his lap. Jaejoong doesn’t answer. Instead, he starts crying and Yunho can do nothing but hold him close, murmur sweet things in his ear and wait until Jaejoong falls asleep from exhaustion.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, feeling the dried tears on his face. He hears the door open and Changmin’s voice breaks the silence.
“Hyung, you’re awake! Yunho hyung asked me to check up on you. It’s almost time for di-“ Before Changmin could finish, he finds himself with an armful of Jaejoong, sobbing against his chest.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” Jaejoong chants as if his life depended on it.
“What’s wrong hyung?” Changmin asks, perplexed at how Jaejoong is acting. Jaejoong pulls back and Changmin is startled by the anguish he sees.
“Hyung?”
Jaejoong continues crying.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2011 again. He wakes up tangled in his black couch, empty alcohol bottles scattered beside him. His stomach churns, his gut twisting with sadness, guilt, shame.
He never should’ve left them behind.
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, inside his shared room with Yoochun. The cream walls reflect the sunlight coming from the open windows. Jaejoong is almost comforted. Except for the part where he just time traveled. What the hell?
Scared, he gets up gingerly and puts on his battered house slippers. He clearly remembers how he threw away the exact pair back in March 2009. What the hell?
He tiptoes to the living room and finds Yunho sitting on the couch, attention completely focused on the pile of papers on his lap. Jaejoong almost melts at the sight but he doesn’t because this Yunho is three years younger and Jaejoong remembers waking up to this very scene three years ago.
Jaejoong faints.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, staring up at a worried, 22-year old Yunho.
“Jaejoong-ah, are you okay?” 22-year old Yunho says. “You fainted in the living room.”
Jaejoong blinks and he tackles Yunho into a fierce hug. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry…” He mumbles against 22-year old Yunho’s neck. He breathes in Yunho’s cologne and he feels tears stinging the back of his eyes.
“What’s wrong Jaejoong-ah?” Yunho asks, holding his lover close until he’s nearly seated on his lap. Jaejoong doesn’t answer. Instead, he starts crying and Yunho can do nothing but hold him close, murmur sweet things in his ear and wait until Jaejoong falls asleep from exhaustion.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2008 all over again. He finds himself lying on his old bed, feeling the dried tears on his face. He hears the door open and Changmin’s voice breaks the silence.
“Hyung, you’re awake! Yunho hyung asked me to check up on you. It’s almost time for di-“ Before Changmin could finish, he finds himself with an armful of Jaejoong, sobbing against his chest.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” Jaejoong chants as if his life depended on it.
“What’s wrong hyung?” Changmin asks, perplexed at how Jaejoong is acting. Jaejoong pulls back and Changmin is startled by the anguish he sees.
“Hyung?”
Jaejoong continues crying.
- - - - -
Jaejoong wakes up and it’s 2011 again. He wakes up tangled in his black couch, empty alcohol bottles scattered beside him. His stomach churns, his gut twisting with sadness, guilt, shame.
He never should’ve left them behind.