I'm Blue...so Blue...

Feb 05, 2010 23:13


I mentioned some family stuff that's going on in my dream post....

Well, we just found out this week that a close relative of mine has cancer.

Add a little red and make violet; it's the colour I prefer.... )

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vyrantium February 6 2010, 07:19:19 UTC
I'm so sorry to hear about your niece, dear *hugs you tight* It seems life hasn't been kind to either of us as of late :/

I know it's not the same and it's probably no consolation, but both my grandpa and my uncle are living with cancer right now so I at least in some way know what you're going through... if you ever want to talk to someone about it or if you need someone to just chat with to distract you, I'm here. And if I'm not hanging around on LJ you can catch me on gmail... my email address is raindroproses at gmail dot com :) I have Yahoo instant messenger too actually, lol. *has no life*

Whatever the outcome, I'm sure your niece feels blessed to have you in her life right now... it's always easier to make it through hardships knowing you have someone who loves you and will support you through it.

*hugs you some more*

Take care, you hear? Chin up soldier... keep fighting the good fight :)

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lennonsmuse February 6 2010, 13:04:27 UTC
Thanks, Luv. No...life certainly has not been kind to either of us, or to many other folks I know. It seems like practically everyone is going through, or has recently suffered through some traumatic event that either involves a loved one or family member. It's crazy as fuck. Certainly gives you more people to commiserate with though, doesn't it? Seems to be the only positive...that someone's always able to relate to a bit of what you're going through.

And yes, it is a consolation that you know what it's like and have relatives who are 'living' with cancer. Keyword there, you know; living...reminds us that it does happen. People can live with it. I just hope that's the case for her. She's so terrified right now (didn't help that some stupid as fuck lab tech came into her room and said, "Oh, that's the kind Patrick Swayze died from, isn't it?"...and that dumb cunt had best count her fuckin' blessings that I wasn't in the room when she said it, but was told a bit later and then went out to look for her...didn't find the bitch, goddamn ( ... )

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vyrantium February 6 2010, 15:40:03 UTC
It really does seem like a lot of bad things are happening to good people these days... makes you wonder what the world is coming to, you know? One of my closest friends from high school just had a scare with her little one year old (my goddaughter) when she started having seizures... had to take her in for an EKG to be sure there was nothing seriously wrong, but thankfully it came back clean. It just makes you think how fragile life is... makes you want to appreciate what you have while you have it even more.

And yes, it is a consolation that you know what it's like and have relatives who are 'living' with cancer. Keyword there, you know; living...reminds us that it does happen. People can live with it. I just hope that's the case for her.I hope so too... I really do. 44 is way too young to have to deal with that kind of illness. I was completely shocked when my mom went downhill with her illnesses, and she was quite a bit older than that... I can't imagine being 44 and finding out you have cancer, but then again there are people my ( ... )

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lennonsmuse February 6 2010, 23:08:53 UTC
*hugs you back* Thank you, angel...for the kind words. And for the words of encouragement. She's a lot stronger than she thinks she is and this is a test of it, certainly.

I spoke to her today (she got released from the hospital yesterday)...and she sounded happy. She seems to feel better being home, and able to eat whatever she wants. The poor thing was starving in the hospital because they kept fasting her for various tests and procedures. I'm happy she still has her appetite at least. They said that's a definite positive with this illness. She told me that she ate like a bear today. lol. And she was watching movies with her guy...one of her favourite things to do, so she sounded content for now. That's what matters.

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melodyclark February 7 2010, 22:19:19 UTC
Oh my god, pancreatic cancer at an early age is horrendous. That said, I know of someone who survived pancreatic cancer and is now seven years beyond it which means she's cancer-free.

I'm so terribly sorry. And I think it's wonderful that you're going to fight with her.

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lennonsmuse February 7 2010, 23:32:44 UTC
You knowing someone who survived pancreatic cancer is encouraging. Thanks for another reminder that people do survive this terrible disease. I can never hear too many. I spent a lot of time online yesterday reading the various stories of other survivors, because I find it necessary...having those constant reminders so that I can help to encourage her.

We just have to believe that she's going to beat this...and we're going to help her find the strength to do so.

Thanks again for the encouragement, Dear.

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melodyclark February 8 2010, 08:24:28 UTC
Here's a site you might find valuable:

http://www.pancreatica.org/survivor_stories.html

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lennonsmuse February 10 2010, 21:01:21 UTC
Thank you for the link, Dear. Those survivor stories are certainly very helpful and encouraging.

It also helps that my sister, my niece's other aunt, is a breast cancer survivor...for over 5 years now. She's going to go to the cancer clinic with our niece when she starts her chemo/radiation treatments. Hopefully itll be a great help that she has a close relative who's already been through it and who can sort of introduce her to the staff at the clinic and let her know a bit of what to expect while she's going through it.

She has another biopsy scheduled for Friday. Guess they just want further confirmation before they start her on the treatments. I keep praying that their first diagnosis was wrong. Silly of me, I know...but I can't stop hoping, no matter what. No matter what.

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