Comments | leipeipei: sometimes you lose yourself

leipeipei

sometimes you lose yourself

May 26, 2009 23:20

Last three days have been interesting to say the least. I was told by my oral surgeon to take it easy for at least a week, but I've done the complete opposite. I don't think my surgeon would approve of any of the things I've done :| Oh, well ( Read more... )

dentists are evil, y u b so hot, meme

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anonymous May 27 2009, 03:49:49 UTC

Never ever have I told anyone this, but back at the end of January/beginning of February (around Super Bowl time) I felt seriously suicidal for the first time in my life. Not just the innocent curiosity of wondering why people would commit the act or how people would react if I was suddenly gone. I was suicidal in that I didn't want to live anymore. I had never felt so helpless and lost and alone in my entire life. I don't know if it was a bad mix of hormones and/or sibling actions, but I sobbed and sobbed that day because I never thought I would ever feel that way. I didn't know what to do. I felt so useless and directionless and I felt like I had nothing and nobody who cared about me that made me want to stay alive. I had no goals and no certainties in life for which I could strive. And it was such a strange feeling to feel that way and to know how others in my situation might have felt when dealing with the same thought ( ... )

chupark May 27 2009, 04:01:40 UTC

WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING :O

i think you already know everything. or idk. i have nothing in my mind atm cept MAKE ME CUPCAKES BITCH.

and I LOVE YOU, in a non-creepy way :)

leipeipei May 27 2009, 14:17:16 UTC

Nothing too bad, bahhaha.

I'LL GIVE YOU PANNA COTTAS :D because i have bowls full of them left and i think i'll get fatter and unhotter if i eat them all :(

lol, ILY, TOO but in a totally creepy, unhealthy way xD kidding, i think.

chupark May 27 2009, 16:20:58 UTC

:\ .... probably getting heart attacks while watching hot boys strip :P

i've never tried panna cotta....or didn't like it when i did :o

gosh what a creeper KEKEKEKEKEKE i secretly hide my creepy love for you

leipeipei May 27 2009, 18:52:31 UTC

lol i wish. THERE ARE NO HOT BOYS IN LONDON :( i cry, cry.

wut. they are so yummy! but so fattening, omg :| i think i made them wrong and they're kinda ugly but they're so good :D

♥ xD

anonymous May 27 2009, 04:50:54 UTC

i'm supposed to be writing an essay right now.

...i really don't want to be :(

anonymous May 27 2009, 05:02:07 UTC

sometimes i feel like such a faker, sometimes i feel like the most sincere person in the entire room and i get so sick of other people's insincerity. i wish people would stop worrying about being liked all the time and start worrying more about being themselves.

anonymous May 27 2009, 05:04:10 UTC

I feel so sick and tired of life. I really hate how everything seems to suck right now and no matter what anyone tells me, it just doesn't seem to get better. I'm just so upset and tired of everything right now; I don't even know why. :( I have no direction in life, no goal, no purpose and it's killing me to feel so helpless about everything.

And I think you're really awesome and I love you. :)