Me and paul finished.
I fell into a relationship with someone else.

I'm crazy about her.

and I've never been more terrified of anything in my life.

Paul has hit a major snag in regards to education.

he might be thrown out.

it's very... worrying, for lack of a better word.

especially considering we're moving in to our new house in a couple of days.

I really hope this all gets sorted.

So I've been building up a big ass 80s hits collection today.

and I gotta say, I was so growing up in the wrong decade.

I don't think I've ever smiled so much listening to music until today.

seriously, Im considering dancing.

Im so fudging bored right now.
I'd like to actually... do... something.

or just move in already.

All arguments with the man are slowly being fixed.

I love him dearly. I'm so lucky and happy with him. I'm glad.

we also might have the house... the house we were told we didn't have... it's complicated.

No house. that's over ( Read more... )

Most of my LJ groups are to do with buffy or lesbians. hmm...

Paul was rushed to hospital after vomiting blood.

he's been in overnight and had that camera down his throat.
but he's out now and sounds positive...

scared the crap out of me...

Paul will be here momentarily!

I feel better.

I also finished his song. it's actually quite good. yayness.

ripped a couple of audio bits from youtube into mp3s and listening to them now ( Read more... )

after chatting a little with paul on the phone and chatting to my parents last night, I've decided that if I keep over thinking my relationship with paul, then I'l lose him.

and I really don't want to. at all.

It's time to start growing up, I think.