so i've decided that i really hate cars.
over the last year of my life i have been affected by too many accidents.
2 of which i was personally in.
the first one was back in october with stacy.
pretty much everyone knows about that one by now.
the second was 2 days ago.
on the way to my cousin's graduation party in amherst.
my dad hadn't gotten too much ( Read more... )

wow.
about 5 minutes ago i was one hundred percent content.
now i'm about ninety five.
but damn... even though there are some things
that really shouldn't matter
they can still really get to you.

i can now officially know
i made the right decision a couple months ago.
ohh well.
i'll take it as an affirmation of my suspicions.
rather than let it piss me off.

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as most of my friends know
i complain about my dad
a lot.

let me explain/justify this

times when my dad becomes "involved" in my life
1. when my mom makes him
2. if it involves sports
3. if he can somehow impede on my wants while at the same time justify it as good parenting because he's teaching me that life, in fact, is "not fair."
4. if my sister is ( Read more... )

life can be absolutely, without a doubt, amazing.
but it can just as easily be a catastrophy. a complete devestation.
to put it simply, a mess.

i hate when life proves how fragile it can truely be.
how unfair it really is.
how one day someone can be sitting in front of you
and in a moment
they're gone.
to go from thinking i'll have the next day to talk
to ( Read more... )

boston was fun...
ish.
the end.
now i'm gonna do this
Part One: Type in the word in your iTunes browser and tell how many songs come up in your library.

1. Love: 157
2. Hate: 37
3. Punk: 751
4. Rap: 76
5. Green: 97
6. Red: 58
7. Beautiful: 56
8. Ugly: 1
9. Heart: 85
10: Mind: 19
11. Never: 34
12. Forever: 8

Part Two: Sort by Rating.

How many songs are unrated: 4151
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dearest life,

I FREAKIN LOVE YOU.

sincerely,
me.

so happy easter.

a lot has happened in the past few days.
i ended things with josh
we're still going to be friends
and i feel like i made the right decision
but right now i just really need to hear that
i need to hear that the choice i made was the right one

and i'm going to senior ball with george
he's not too thrilled about having to wear pink
but he'll ( Read more... )

i'm getting on with my life.

i'm done with all this petty shit.
high school needs to be over
NOW.

okay so i've been on this ridiculously happy streak since the volleyball tournament last saturday
and i was soooo close to this happy streak lasting a WHOLE week.
then last night, i got home from spring into bonas

and i was home and i wanted to stay there for awhile but NOOO.
i went to a hockey game.
(a funny thing happened before i left though)
and i ( Read more... )

sooo today in choir me and carolyn were chatting about ben lee and the lilac fest last year
and we were wondering who would be there this year.
neither of us knew though.

i just found out it's MIKE DOUGHTY.

this is me excited.
like FREEEEEAKIN OFF THE WALLS EXCITED.

yay.
may 11th.
7:30.

i'll be there.