stay strong" she said to me ( Read more... )

lost love. found someone new.
lost friends. fized the bridges ive burned.
lost family. made new beginings.
lost motovation. gained new inspiration.

ive been thinking a lot about my next tattoo. i think i know what i want. gotta find it though.

all for now.

waiting for summer.
moving to castine on thursday.
living 3 hours from home the summer before i go to college.
weak? sweet? we'll see.

i miss rachel still.
a few good nights out should do away with that.
i want dana at the same time.
i hate me sometimes.
"my guts have shit for brains"

First Caffeine of the season, rough with splendor ( Read more... )

pressed lips to paper cannot print
words; they fade and smudge without
a touch when all i need are
your eyes on my lashes to feel we are
for each other. and shiver, shiver
smiling beneath a canopy of rain

but these days i can still feel you slipping through my fingers. you are liquid; calm until rattled; furious; passionate; evaporating. until the last few drops are gone i will hold close to the thought of you. i dont want to loose this forever. i need you back. i guess until then i'll just be waiting for the next rainstorm.

so ive been put on zoloft for my depression.

just thought that faggot that keeps leaving anonymous messages might wanna know. this is it for real though. sorry for the false alarm before.

im never going to write in this again. this is my last entry

im sorry i fucked you up so bad

i lied.

i dont want this to be the end and i dont understand if thats what you need.

make me understand

i dont want this to be the end but i understand if thats what you need