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way depressed and not sleeping
i have been really depressed lately me and josh had a bad wekend i guess and thats alot of it. it started off a regular friday and then josh said soething to e that really made my self esteem take a dive into the toilet. in short he said i need to be more aware of what i do around him if i want to have sex with him. it was a bad night and a bad ( Read more... ) -
thoughts of past days
ok so im sitting here and i cant sleep and im thing that i really should post something about what im thinking to LJ so here i am. today i had alot of stress i went to go fax a form to my investment company and took my kids to lunchand vash my youngest son threw the hugest fit ive ever seen out of him. he threw himself on the ground wouldnt listena ( Read more... ) -
insomnia
right now its like 1 am or so and there's nothing to do but stare at my husbands skinny white butt lying next to me snoring. i have bad insomnia. right now im waiting to ge some paperwork back from the irs so i can finally file my tax return when i do im taking a family trip up there with the money i have been working non stop to get some extra ( Read more... ) -
kittys are awesum
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fuck i hate it here
good morning fucking wasted life ( Read more... ) -
memories are fading no more
reading my past entries gives me the chills. remembering a time without children or much stress. a time with love and passion. i cant believe my life was such a fairytale for a time.
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Random thoughts of the day
E-dating,waxing and games ( Read more... ) -
joshua,still the love of my life
i sent this letter to him ( Read more... )