way depressed and not sleeping
i have been really depressed lately me and josh had a bad wekend i guess and thats alot of it. it started off a regular friday and then josh said soething to e that really made my self esteem take a dive into the toilet. in short he said i need to be more aware of what i do around him if i want to have sex with him. it was a bad night and a bad next day and now i feel wierd about sex with hi in general. its like everything i was thinking about myself for the past few years all the negitive stuff just cae flooding in all at once and it was not good. we have since talked a bit about it. but im still really depressed and feeling very incomfortable about the whole sex situation. since it happend ive been really down crying alot and really tired and not sleeping but a few hours a night last night i didnt go to sleep till 4 and woke up at 730 it sucked and once im awake im awake and thats it. i think i will feel better once some of my worries are taken care of. even little things are bothering me lately i get very cranky when im to tired. well im off to try and sleep again.