Believe it or not, I'm actually excited about isolating myself from everybody and starting over. I'm starting to realize I don't need anybody.. (which in all reality, I already knew.. just never wanted to accept it) I love being around people and having friends. But sometimes having friends is not the most important thing in the world...

My dad has ( Read more... )

Damn.. it's been almost 4 weeks since I last updated.. so much has happened ( Read more... )

This afternoon, my best friend Myzhak invited me to go to church with him. Now normally I am pretty much opposed to church because every time I go, I don't feel a thing. I sit there and watch everyone else feel him and I'm alone. I almost feel like an outcast.. in church ( Read more... )

Ughhh, the last few days have been wonderful. For some reason, when I'm with him... everything seems to be right. (except when we fight lol)  I really do like this kid. a lot. too much, as he puts it. I'm watching him right now... he's changing his son's diaper. it's too damn cute. He's such a good father. ugh i <3 him.

Today I drove ALLLLL the way ( Read more... )

was an awesome day! Started my new job. :)  I learned everything pretty fast. They actually said around the end of the day that they've never had anybody learn as fast as me on there first day !!! WOO HOO ( Read more... )

Travel deep inside yourself without
the baggage of conditioning.
Be an explorer, have patience
and eventually your true nature
will surface.
You will return from your journey
with fresh skin and you will approach each day
with a wonderful sense of wonder and bliss.
~Marco R. Capristo

I'll never truly understand relationships.... you can give and give ( Read more... )

Listen…

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And ( Read more... )

Wow, I just read my two livejournals from 2004 and on...
so many memories. I have grown up into something so different... yet there are so many qualities that are still the same. Guess old habits die hard.
(wanna read old entries? usernames:  orangelickswire &/or  __lauren )

I just got Ricky to make a live journal... haha :)

I seriously cannot wait ( Read more... )

Wow... I remember having one of these when I was in H.S. and I actually really didn't use it as a diary at the time... It was more like the "myspace" back in the day...

But this time... this is going to be my real life diary. Because I go through so much on a day to day basis and I would like to come back to remember this. (I have a very poor ( Read more... )