i don't think i've been this disappointed in a long time. i thought he wasn't gonna be another person to just walk out of my life... he told me he wasn't... but his actions and his failure to follow through make me realize that he's just like everyone else to make this promise to me. i don't know... maybe i'm the fool for putting so much effort ( Read more... )

i wonder why God made me the oldest.

i wonder why He made me the "reliable" one.

i wonder why i wasn't born with a messed up brain.

i wonder why i wasn't the one that "almost didn't make it".

i wonder why He picked me to be "the example".

i wonder why He made me the "strong" one.

the "successful" one. the "patient" one.

"the one everyone can depend on ( Read more... )

i don't know if i've ever felt more loved than i did tonight.

i'm REALLY bad at updating....

but... life just hasn't been this good in a LONG time. i may not be exactly where i want to be... things may be VERY different than i had planned//pictured... but i am content with life. no doubt in my mind.

i have a job i semi-enjoy [lol]... i'm going to school and i'm dealing with all of my classes [i even loveee two ( Read more... )

life is amazing.

basically.

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so, i know i never update this. and it's pretty crappy that it happens. but i just ferget that i have this ( Read more... )

so since i NEVER update anymore, i've decided that i will. i think its because i feel i have nothing incredibly profound to say, so people will get bored purely reading about my day//life. i'm not too exciting as you can see already.

school started. pretty much, its alright.

i like helping people. just the feeling of a little thank you for some good ( Read more... )

toniiight was AMAZING. it made my summer. i've seen TBS... 5 times? tonight was AWESOME.

so first was the subways... ratiing: 3/10
-not myy cup of tea. i liked onee of their songs. but i just never really got into them.

second, head automatica... rating: 8/10
-upbeat and lively... lovedd it. "graduation day" and "lying through your teeth" made me ( Read more... )

so... i never update anymore. lol. ooops.

SJSU orientation next weeek! kinda exciited... but i think it mayy be a bit lamee seeing as how i know everything about that damn campuss.... but they MAKE you stay overnight. so we'll see how that goes...

FRIIIDAY! TBS//AVA. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO exciited. = ]]]]]]]]]