It would be nice

[last_nice_guy]

It would be nice if the plates at work weren't so freakin' huge. I wanted to get just two things yesterday, but there was SO much space on my plate. I used salad to cover it up to look like a somewhat "normal" meal. At least today I'm the only one in, so I can put only what I want on a plate and not feel judged...much

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[xxbabytigerxx]

that's amazing that you're back to your old pant size - i bet that feels great !
it sounds like you've been making some good progress and i hope you have a good time at your parents. i know how hard that can be, and if you don't mind me asking, do they know about your struggle with food?
stay strong and i'm here to chat if you feel like you're going crazy during your stay :)

[last_nice_guy]

Well, I don't want to call it my "old pant size". That I reserve for my 33/34" clothes that have collected dust for too long. 36" waist is still huge. I want to have a reason for wearing a belt again :)

They never officially knew anything, but they absolutely suspected since some things you can't hide. Like your sister telling you that if you get skinnier, you'll disappear, but shooting that down because your stomach is still nasty. Or having an argument with your mom that yes, a piece of fruit IS enough for breakfast.

But they do know about my depression now because of a brief hospital stay, so I don't have to hide taking my pills... which means that my appetite suppressant just looks like another medication.
And thank you for being awesome :)