I love this!

I have been feeling this way for a long time.  There is more to life than what I am doing.  I work, hang out with friends, then go home.  Life should be so much more than that.  Is life really worth living if I live only for myself?  My heart aches for those whose lives are crap.  I was never beat, I wasn't pushed an pulled through all kinds of ( Read more... )

 So, my parents are going to be out of this house by the 14th (one week from today) I will most likely go and stay with my aunt who lives in lake oswego because she has an extra room and is willing to put me up.

Then on the 21st (one week from the 14th but two weeks from today) I will be moving into my apartment. It is technically open on the 20th, ( Read more... )

 
I hope I dream I wish

The days would pass so much easier if these thoughts didn't exsist

Knowing you are not for me, and I not for you

I can hope I want but that will not bring you back to me

I miss the times we had, the love I felt (was it truly one sided?)

The comfort, the peace, the joy I felt allowed me to dream

Dreams that flutter past now, no ( Read more... )

ok, that is only the beginning, but I did get my tattoo yesterday. I am sore as anything today, but that is ok.  I am also leaving for Mexico on saturday. EEK! I am leaving soon!!!! I am terrified.....

here is my tattoo, its on my upper/mid back on the right hand side
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I find myself in a place, almost suspended in air.  Looking back on highschool, realizing that all along, the feelings that it was a waste of time, were true.  I always thought, that while at the time, I would feel like school was a waste, then be able to look back like you do with most times in your life, and realize it was needed.  I however, ( Read more... )

and Zumiez couch tour is the entire reason for it.  All day today Collette and I were yelling at stupid punk kids that htink just because there is a special event going on that it is ok for them to ride their skateboards through the mall and then mock its employees. no. not cool. I have never had to call security as many times as I did today... ( Read more... )

ok so the BBQ was fun, I had a great time... nearly died though. Soda seemed to want to kill me.  Then after that kinda sucked because the plans I had were cancelled... then I just went over to Collettes. Well I sat in a park alone, then went there.  I needed that, both emotionally and physically.  She popped my back and I haven't fel tthat good in ( Read more... )

 I bought my plane tickets today!!! June 30th 7:45 AM I get on a plane that will begin my two month long internship to Juarez, Mexico... EEEEK!!!!! I can barely contain the excitement I feel... gosh.  I will arrive in El Paso at four in th after noon.  Then I will leave for Portland September first at 4:00 PM and arrive home around 11. I want to ( Read more... )

I know you are there, looking down on me. I can feel you moving in my life and in those of others. I see the works of your hands and I stand in wonder.  I see the things you do, and I don't question it because I know you have a plan.... But can't you just this once reach down.... Intervene. I have been on my knees, I have been begging Lord of the ( Read more... )