Pain

[lashanainferno]

I lie here at night, trying to sleep, and I have to wonder at the way things are. Everyday. a little bit more of me dies - I can feel it in my chest like a black hole that's slowly chipping away at the Universe, destroying more and more; and I'm starting to think that I don't have anything left.

I didn't think my life would be this way, constantly

Comments

[lvsinsanity]

Have...you tried telling her that you feel the need for a pet? What if you tried telling her a variance of what you said here? That you need something that won't judge, won't care, will just silently be there for you to run your fingers through..

Maybe with just a little bit of patience and persistence she might let you have a ferret?

Especially if you're paying all the bills... 0_o

[mmouse15]

Lasha, darling. Please. Life is worth it, it really is.

I care. I cared, and it drove me crazy during my depression, but I still care and it's still worth it. Stay strong, because if you've survived thus far, you are strong, and this too shall pass.

Talk to Telca about the pet situation. I couldn't have survived without the companionship and unconditional love of my cat and my dog, and having someone like that to love you no matter what is sanity saving. If Telca can't change her position, volunteer at the local shelter for an hour or two each week.

Please hang in there. The world would be a poorer place without you in it.

*hugs gently*