they say that in college you'll find your real, close friendships ( Read more... )

I am frustrated with God.
I have a hard time believing He cares.
He's going to do what He wants to do regardless of anything I do or ask.
People say He wants the best for you.
But He allows His people to get tortured and killed. How is that the best for you? 
He allows everyone to suffer.
Is character shaping that important? Aren't the costs too high?
Why ( Read more... )

I am reserved. I am always cautious about what I say and share. I'm not very  friendly and rather distrustful. But I don't believe I'm naturally this way. I think it has more to do with my upbringing and my experience, not who I really am.  I know that's not who I am inside. I have spent most of my life trying to reverse this barrier and to be who ( Read more... )

Going to drawn.ca always shows me that there is talent in this world. Whenever you feel like there are no creative artists anymore, just plug into drawn. Unfortunately, the other side effect I feel is that I'm so inadequate. My portfolio is pitifully poor. I am better than the average person, and I do feel I have talent, but I have so few pieces ( Read more... )

Although I consider professor Rebecca Roe my mentor, and am sincerely grateful to her, I am realizing that she may have inhibited some of my creativity. I do not wish to blame her for any of my insecurities or whatever else may hinder me, I simply want to be honest. I do not even want to admit that she may have had some part in disconnecting my ( Read more... )

I need to reconcile myself with meaningless artwork ( Read more... )

Thank God I only have one hour left of work. I'm bored. I really dont like to be bored because there's so much to do that I never should be bored. artistic pursuits, reading, and the like should eat up every little bit I have. but you can't do much of that at work. Ironically, I have lots of spare time at work but hardly any at home ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like the most uncreative person. especially when i look at other people's awesome work. i look at my meager works and declare "i suck!" i know i shouldn't compare myself with someone else with 20+ experience, but it still makes me wonder if i will ever reach my potential ( Read more... )

so i've been in vegas since may. to my horror i had to come back to my parents' home. the summer was terrible, but now its not so bad I have saved enough money now that I can leave whenever i want to. so why am i still here? so i can bite a huge chunk out of my $40,000 in loans. just to get ahead a little. paycheck to paycheck isn't very fun ( Read more... )

How do young people meet other young people these days ( Read more... )