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Just to feel like we belong
I think that is the only thing that everyone really craves, to feel as if they belong. Belong to a group, belong to someone. Just to be someone that someone else thinks is their everything. Belonging is a very special thing. We all strive to belong. Finding acceptance anywhere can be a huge rush. A rush that could cause you to change yourself just ( Read more... ) -
ripped apart by lies & anger
I am not even sure I want to be writing, but it feels like I need to, like there's something inside me that needs to get out or I'll burst and then just keel over and die. There's still so much pain there, inside. I have never allowed it out really. I mean, yes there have been tears in the dead of night, but I hardly ever burden anyone with what I' ( Read more... ) -
It's been forever...and it's felt like a lifetime
I can't believe its been this long since I've sat at a computer and typed. It's been so long since I've even typed on a regular keyboard that I'm having a hard time doing so. It's been so long since I've even sat down at a desktop computer to do anything. I remember the days where I thought I'd never, not write in my livejournal...apparently those ( Read more... ) -
Dream State
Been having some crazy dreams lately, but I think.astnight's really topped them all. I was at a wedding, for Melissa McCarthy and the guy who plays Owen on Drop Dead Diva....yea, mixing my TV shows already! And then Harry Shum Jr (Mike Chang from Glee) shows up and asked me if I know the steps....of course I don't and I tell him I just got the call ( Read more... ) -
7 Months...
Wow, I can't believe it's been 7 months. And I guess it's gonna be one more day before I get a full update. I just realized it's 2AM so I'm going to bed. I'll update on the last 7 months soon. *waves* -
yo!
It's been a really busy summer, spending June and July in Jacksonville - Ryan spent July with me in Jax. We went and saw the shuttle take off down in Satilette Beach with mom. (July 8th) Ryan and I visited his aunt and attended a drum circle and got to see a baby turtle make it's way into the ocean. We also walked Jax Beach, went to the zoo, and ( Read more... ) -
Forever - Idina Menzel
We thought it had it all
We thought we'd go unscathed
We thought our love would border on infinity
We thought that we were free
The world would disappear
We left ourselves wide open and we had no fear
But forever came and went
Forever stumbled through
Forever had poor sense of time and made a mess of me and you
Forever had us fooled
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I don't wanna be alone
Celebrated my 28th birthday (6/2), really low key. And of course there's been a whirlwind of emotions. Half me wants to stay in Jacksonville, where all my friends are and just figure things out from here, and half of me wants to be in Las Vegas holding Ryan. I'm very conflicted. He was admitted into the hospital June 12th, with a high blood ( Read more... ) -
Things You Don't Want to Hear, But I'm gonna Tell you Anyways!
Weed is affecting your health. That spitting shit you do, all started up again when you started smoking regularly! You might not see it but I DO ( Read more... ) -
Back to Jacksonville?! Yep, it's true, I'm coming back.
It finally dawned on me that my life was going no where here, and that the guy I loved is just going to waste his life away. He decided the only way to be happy is to smoke. And no matter what I say, he stands firm. I can't sit around and watch him waste his life. I love him and care for him deeply but will not just sit around anymore. So get ready ( Read more... )