I don't wanna be alone
Celebrated my 28th birthday (6/2), really low key. And of course there's been a whirlwind of emotions. Half me wants to stay in Jacksonville, where all my friends are and just figure things out from here, and half of me wants to be in Las Vegas holding Ryan. I'm very conflicted. He was admitted into the hospital June 12th, with a high blood sugar and his usual throwing up routine. I'm hoping to hear from his parents this morning, to find out how he's doing. Even though I know how he is doing if he's following his usual protocol he is feeling very weak, doesn't want to eat and just wants to sleep most of the day, then tomorrow he will start to sip on more and more and by Wednesday he should be released. This is absolutely tearing me apart even though I knew it was going to happen, I just didn't know when. I really just want to hear his voice.