So I spent my whole day giving, and not getting anything back, which isn't exactally how I planned it so I felt kinda bitter afterwards. Then someone moved my laundry from the washer to the dryer. That might not seem like a big deal to your readers out there but for over 7 years I've been telling people don't touch my laundry, don't touch my ( Read more... )

I just miss Durrant so much I needed to vent it somewhere. Sometimes I truly wish at the bottom of my heart we could just get married already and start our life together. At first I was excited about dating him, but it seems like the more I think about it, the more discontent I become with the idea. It's like being in a bubble, I can see him and ( Read more... )

I really hate it when the thing I know I should do is the last thing I really want to do...

I really miss Durrant, and by really I mean I pretty much cry every time I think about him... like right now for instance. Then I'll try to stop crying by thinking things like, "he wouldn't want you to cry," but that really just makes it worse because all it does is remind me of how great he is. I thought things get better with time ya know? Like ( Read more... )

I don’t know if any of you are like this too, but I tend to make up arbitrary guidelines and then live by them like they’re some kind of rule. Now one of these rules I came up with really young was that I would be baptized at 13, so when I was 13 and a half and I saw my window of opportunity closing, I started studying the bible. It was pretty hard ( Read more... )

Has anyone else ever been in a situation where you've played out how something's going to go in your head over and over so many times that you've become attached to it going that way, so now you're at the point where even thinking about the possibility of it not going that way, or not happening at all just makes you sad and disappointed? ...yea

I went to Chicago for spring break '07 and it was amazing. I went ice skating outside at the park. I went to the Zoo with a conservatory and the Museum of Science and Industry. I saw a show at the Planetarium and went on a Tiffany Glass tour around the city. I went to a party on the 67 floor of the Sears Tower and went to the Hancock Observatory. ( Read more... )

Growing up as a kingdom kid I always loved God and felt close to him. When you grow up in the church becoming a disciple is something that is pretty much expected of you, or at least it feels like it is. So when I was 13 I started studying the bible and there’s a lot I learned at that time especially about my pride and I learned a little bit more ( Read more... )

Just so I remember to say it the three other things I posted today I actually wrote a long long time ago on my MySpace blog and when I deleted that I posted it to my Facebook blog and I decided it was too personal for Facebook so I'm moving it to here. Except for the post about the quote, I'm leaving that one on Facebook too just because I think it ( Read more... )

For those of you who know me you’re probably wondering how I can agree with a statement that says “never regret anything.” I say that because most, if not all of you, know about my series of unfortunate events that have happened in the past in regards to my love life. This blog is for you and anyone else who is tempted to regret a decision they ( Read more... )