i'm confused. I am more solitary now that I live in the city again. I hardly see anyone. I don't call. I don't write. time seems to fly at school, yet at home it goes slowly. there's time to read. I have finished two books and am approaching the end of the third. my clothes are all put away. I always do my dishes. is this adulthood? have I become ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think anymore, besides, I want out of here in june. I think berlin is calling me. I think february is for mexico and june is for berlin and my dad's giving me his superphoto zoom lens. i want a digital camera I can change the lens on, yesterday. but that will take time to save up for ( Read more... )

strep throat. gross. hacking.

maybe it's all mono in disguise. I've been ill for two months. I'm tired.

(you're the dream I couldn't have imagined) unless I ( Read more... )

I keep finding beautiful things and trying to break them. I want to smash procelain miniatures and pull cello strings out until my hands bleed. I wish I was smarter ( Read more... )

there are too many miles between us to tell you. but I'd be the boy if you wanted me too. or asked. or if in asking, weren't shy enough to know the answer already. I'm already wearing black pearls in anticipation of it, in shy awareness that they may have been in your mouth at some point, been through some simple slurping. I am slicker than slick ( Read more... )

fresh piercings, I'm dropping all over the place. dripping from sweat and dry throatedm it's summer in the midwest.

being away at a puppet conference was like, uh, stepping into an alternate universe where everyone talked with their hands and even forks could be used as representative of joy and hate in the world. who knew that silverware could hold such wonderful emotiong, or become so touching. I played with beef in front of 75 people, completely embarassed ( Read more... )

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a mullet. no really, a faux-mullet, sort of like the girl in la femme nikkita or tegan and sara. pictures to come ( Read more... )