first, they said "it's okay" "it didnt matter" to me.. and just only one night, all the words are vanish!! they blame me.. they thought  i dont hurt inside, they thought i didnt sad?? i'm stress!! i'm desperate.. but they didnt see it! they just see what they want to see, which is i'm enjoy and happy with this situation, and i didnt do some action ( Read more... )

added one more addiction..  i always addicted to weird thing *sighs*

why after missing one type of addiction, its appears the new addiction?? why i cant get back my "ordinary" and "normal" life..
it makes me annoyed!!!

and just one step i'll get my freedom and immerse myself to all this addiction..