thinking negatively

[lacephotograph]

Today feels weird. Kind of like it's not real. Kind of like a dream that I'm likely to wake up from any minute. I wish. It'd be nice to wake up somewhere different. As someone different.

I don't even feel down today. Sometimes I mope around the house all sad like. Today rather I'm just in a weird mood. I'm not down, but compared to happy people I am

Comments

[kandielei]

"I just didn't feel like a real person"

did you talk to anyone about this? you said it's common for you, so just wondering. sounds like dissociation to me.

i wouldn't put a huge amount of weight on what's going on bodily/mentally for you right now since you don't know how much of it is side effects (even stuff you experienced before could be happening now because of meds). not saying it doesn't suck, just saying it could go either way.

[lacephotograph]

nah haven't mentioned it yet. i don't really know much about dissociation though.

[applecandy22]

yep, I would like to be someone else like Britney Spears or something for a day sometimes.
strange things happen to us. two nights ago I was sleep walking. I woke up and I was on my feet.

[lacephotograph]

that is weird. hope you didn't do anything too bad while you were asleep!

[applecandy22]

well, when I realized what happened I started to cry. I was standing next to my bed but I was thankful I didn't do anything. I said a prayer.
see? weird things happen to all of us!

[lacephotograph]

aww not cool that you cried! just be happy that at least you didn't do something horrible while you were asleep!