alright, i am going to blog in here and it may very well be of the same things i said a month ago except now it is november ( Read more... )

no one person is one dimensional. take time out of your life to get to know people so as to erase preassumptions and first impressions about them. people who seem happy go lucky may not be. if one has a breakdown and needs someone there to just listen or understand, don't freak out or back away or act awkward. why can't we all just help and listen ( Read more... )

i have that song stuck in my head. boooooo. in 2 weeks i will be a senior. gone will be the days of sitting in calculus hearing julia belaya scream, gone will be the days of making fun of the chinese teacher with kimlinda, gone will be the days of going out to lunch with cameron, gone will be the days of patting ryan's redhead and mia's mermaid ( Read more... )

i'm really really scared right now. and upset. feeling scared is not an emotion i am usually familiar with. it's like sitting on a bomb. tick tock, tick tock.

i really need a weekend off to relax and just take time off for myself. leagues was sooo tiring and i ended up doing worse than my trial times. oh well, as long as i am still going to CCS then i don't care. awww senior prom is so exciting! i hella wanted to go because many of my friends will be there including chelsea and amie and such. and awww ( Read more... )

swim meets are laaame. i don't do well under pressure. maybe that's why i slack off so much. i think i slack off because then people wouldn't expect as much out of me and so if i don't live up to their standards, then there would be a lot less disappointment. i hate feeling like i can't fulfill expectations, i think that is why i tend to not care ( Read more... )

it has been awhile since my last post and much has changed since then. i wish i could say i feel hatred towards sonya but i cannot really muster up anything. i just wish all this drama and hate and anger would just cease. i wish we could all grow up and just be mature about change and disagreements. we're not in middle school anymore, we're adults ( Read more... )

is so fricken great right now. i love it

february sweeps are coming again and everything is tragic on the all my children front. i have learned due to spoilers that BABE will be killed. NEXT WEEK. i am crying right now. it is so sad. she is my favorite character in the whole damn show, and theyre killing her off. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. she is a major part of this soap and they cant do it ( Read more... )

i feel like posting but i have nothing to say ( Read more... )