I have been feeling really low lately. I have parts of the day where I'm doing fine, but when I'm alone I feel more alone than I've ever felt before. I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. I have a great time when I'm with people, but I never used to have to rely on others to make myself happy. I was a happy person. I don't know when or how ( Read more... )

The prodigal daughter returns ( Read more... )

So last night was probably one of the worst nights I have had in a long time. First, I got my car back Friday and it had been acting funny since then. So I was driving around Bridgewater doing deliveries and my car just crapped out and the airbag light came on and it all just sucked to high hell. Whatever, I was upset, but I dropped it at the ( Read more... )

I haven't wanted to get out of my own life so much as I have over the past few days. I really hope I get this job because I need something to distract me from other things going on. And no, for once the main thing upsetting me is not boys. Yes there is a guy I'm interested in, yes I'm not sure what's going on, but all of that combined does not ( Read more... )

So, after getting over the cowboy, I met another guy. I know, shocker huh? I don't really want to say much about this one, because whenever I talk about guy situations they turn sour. And this one has been going ok for the most part (no commenting on that Yogi!) and I don't want to ruin it for myself. At worst, it's just some fun being had and at ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've posted a public entry, mostly because I've been dealing with alot of emotions lately that I really wanted to keep private. I want to look back on them and analyze how I've been feeling for the past six months or so, but I also don't want the rest of the world or even my close friends to look at it. I hope that's ok ( Read more... )

So wow, that was a bust. He acted the same around me when the ex turned non-ex wasn't around, but I am so not falling for that stuff, I'm better than that. My friends are right, I need someone more level anyway, so I guess I shouldn't be too disappointed. Still, I cannot BELIEVE that the two of them sang Bring Me to Life. I guess that first week he ( Read more... )

So I'm watching Crash with my seniors, and it's wonderful because they shut up and watch the damn movie without any talking or complaints. It's so freakin nice to not have them talk lol ( Read more... )

So alot is going on I guess, and not at the same time. Where to start? Well I guess I could start with it's midterms. Which means I have so much grading to do and not nearly enough motivation to do it. The problem is I know what a mountain load I have to do, and I can't even begin to figure out where to approach it from. Eh, it'll get done ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm posting here just after posting on myspace...but I just wanted my lj pals to know I still think about them and hope they are having a wonderful holiday season ( Read more... )