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[kusari]

It's funny, with as many women as I've had relationships with...both serious and not....I've never really experienced what it's like to have someone tear the heart right out of your chest...until now...I never knew what it was like to have your heart broken

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[qaexl]

Ouch.

Had something similar happen to me... though we didn't quite get to the ring. I dunno what to tell ya, man, other than that your bros and your buddies are still around.

Take care.

-Q

[kusari]

Q

[qaexl]

Ryan

[kusari]

Hosh,

sorry for taking so long to reply. I appreciate you getting back to me, and I'll continue to call you Q if we're on a forum....take care buddy.

ryan

[young_egotist]

That's really rotten. I hate women. Sorry, I know nothing I say can acutally make you feel better because nothing hurts more in the world than a broken heart. I was talking to denkken last night and he said maybe I'd land a man some day. I told him that's the last thing I want. I'm already in love with the booj, and frankly, it's ten times more rewarding than any relationship I've ever been in. So if it's any consolation, you do have one love left, right? And that's the type of deep unconditional love that no one can take away from you..

[kusari]

Abi,

thanks for saying something hun, I much appreciate it.

It's like I said to Q up above though....this morning yielded a little closure to the situation...and I'm not nearly as outwardly bitter as I was. I'm still very angry at myself for ever letting it go as far as it did....but, I'm no longer angry at her, which is a good thing...I really hate being a venemous and bitter person...it's not in my nature.

We came to terms with things today, or at least, took one more step towards it...and hopefully, time will heal the damage done.

I really appreciate you saying something Abi, even though we don't one another well at all, I appreciate it all the same. Thank you.

And you're right...nothing in the world hurts as much as a broken heart...no physical pain even comes close...and physical wounds heal more quickly than wounds of the heart.

take care kiddo,

I'll talk to you soon.

ryan

[kusari]

Abi, you know....your feelings towards training seem to be rather shared within Bujinkan women. There's a girl by the name of Julie that trains with us....and there was a day we were doing Tobi-geri drills over the fence at the park (it's about sternum level to even a short guy like me)....and she fell, I caught her and hoisted her over...

Either way, the point of this is, she weighs maybe...100lbs soaking wet with 5 layers of wet clothes on...

I said "you know, when you get married....it'll be very easy for your man to carry you over the threshold" Her response was "God forbid that day happens...I've got more than enough here."

anyways....just felt like sharing, you're by no means the only one...

[c00kie58]

Sorry to hear that you had your heart broken, especially over the phone. I'm glad you got some closure though. There is one guy in my life that I never got any closure with... Even now when I think to myself why in the world did I even like him, I'm still so angry because we never had that much needed talk.

Anyway, you should update your journal more often, it would be a good release for you!

[kusari]

Cookie,

thanks for saying somethin' hun...I really appreciate it.

She and I did talk...and it's for the better. We saved a lot of bad tensions and nastiness from our break, and turned them into good things. This girl and I were, and are....very very close, on many different levels...and while it is closure, it's also not....because we've decided to simply take some time to ourselves, and get our own personal lives in order...before we decide to give one another a go again.

The break happened due to different reasons, both personal on both our parts, and communal problems between each other....we've decided to take some time and get the mess fixed...and then possibly, we may give one another another chance.

What can I say...even after that, I love her...

Damn...you know, I didn't know anyone even read this stupid journal...that's why I never post here...my cathartic exercises are drawing and training...I leave LJ for discussion....

thanks for replying though Cookie dear :hugs: to you.

You're a sweetheart like always :)

ryan

[darrowred]

you know everything is going to work out for the better.
take it in stride

[kusari]

I am....that was just a venemous venting post...

No offense...but do I know you?

ryan

[kusari]

oooh, is that you Liss?