I was doing some thinking as I lay down for a nap today. I've figured out what my problem is. I'm totally attracted to the shy type. So I fall in lust with these guys who won't say a word to me, and I'm all sad because they "ignore" me. Brent wasn't in the slightest bit shy. It was so easy with him because he was constantly telling me how much ( Read more... )

I hung out with a guy tonight. I don't know if it was a date or not, I'm leaning towards no. He was pretty cool, very shy, totally into his music. And I left my cell phone in his car, which sucks, because I think he was planning on avoiding me until he found out that he'd have to give me my cell phone back. Ohs well. I'll survive.

I'm a whore. If you don't believe me, ask Zach. Wait, no. Zach is a whore. If you don't believe him, just ask me. Our date was a disaster. No sex, but definately some heavy petting, and I felt sick afterwords. I didn't like him. He didn't like me. He just wanted to take advantage of me because I was trying to get over something. No, I ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Megan's birthday. Megan rocks. I ruined her birthday by crying and she was okay with it and just held me ( Read more... )

Am I the only one who is having LJ log off every 5 seconds? I log on, press friends, no! You can't see your friends' page because you're not logged on! Sucker ( Read more... )

Today I bought ( Read more... )

I got a job, which is pretty cool. I'm afraid that I'll get fired though. I'm always afraid I'll get fired, no matter what the job ( Read more... )

The masses are brainwashing me. If they don't keep me druged up, then I might get out of control. Or say things that I shouldn't. When people are a bitch to me, I can't fight back. 130mgs of mind controling meds prevent me from caring about shit ( Read more... )

I called Laura yesterday. I love her. She's like nobody else and she never tries to be ( Read more... )

Things are weird. The demons are here, though this time I can't see them. I know they're here, though. I can feel them. I don't know how much of it is just my bad luck and how much is connected to Her. The fact that everyone I loved and trusted flipped me off and stabbed me in the back and kicked me while I was down at the same time... that ( Read more... )