Fan fic Asylum - Chapter 18

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Title: Asylum

Characters: Kato Shigeaki, OC, Tegoshi Yuya, Masuda Takahisa, Koyama Keichiro, Yamashita Tomohisa, Horikita Maki, Ryo Nishikido, Fujigaya Taisuke, Kimura Takuya, Gackt.

Rating: G13

Disclaimer: I own the story ONLY

Summary: When a group of mentally unstable people are the sanest people in a room, there is something wrong....

A/N: Sorry about the delay... again!





Chapter 18
Shige was still thinking about what Tegoshi had told him, though he had already stopped freaking out.

They were sitting in the common area. They didn’t have many options but to wait and see if G would come back from wherever he had been taken to and to see if he knew something about what was going on. Those were two very big “ifs.”

He was sitting next to Erika but looking at Fijigaya. He hadn’t said anything yet but the other man’s face was starting to change. In the past the faces had morphed fast, in a matter of seconds. With Fujigaya, and other patients, the change was slow, changing a little at the time. He hadn’t noticed at first but he was sure now. If they didn’t stop what was happening to him… well Shige didn’t know what the hell was going to happen, which was somehow worse.

Erika got up and asked Tegoshi to follow her.

“Wow, I’m impressed,” he heard Koyama say in a low voice. “Very little jealousy.”

They both chuckled. It was true, Shige understood better the relationship they both had.

“Why are you so scared?” Koyama asked low enough so that only Shige could hear.

“With all that’s happening do I need to answer that?”

“It’s a specific fear that intensifies when you look at Fujigaya.”

Damn him. Shige took a deep breath. “He’s changing.”

Koyama nodded.

At that moment Erika came back and Tegoshi left with one of the nurses, one of the good, safe nurses, Shige noticed looking at the man’s face.

Fujigaya seemed to snap from the trance he had been in.

“I have to get out of here. I need air,” he said

“I’ll go with you,” Koyama said.

“I don’t need a fucking nanny,” Fujigaya snapped. Koyama simply looked at him. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to snap at you.”

“It’s okay, let’s go.”

They both left, leaving Shige uncomfortable that those two were alone together.

“Do you mind coming with me?” Erika asked Shige.

“Sure.”

They walked in silence for a while. Shige wanted to know what she and Tegoshi had talked about but knew she would tell him when she was ready.

“Tegoshi told you about him.”

It wasn’t a question but Shige answered anyway. “Yes. Is… is it as bad as he says?”

Erika took a while to answer.

“Yes, it is. I can’t really describe it but it’s awful. For him mostly. Specially afterwards. He thinks another episode is coming and he’s scared.”

“Because the drugs are wearing off?”

“Because he feels it coming. That’s why we are here.” She stopped and sat on the floor a one of the halls. Shige sat next to her.

“What are we doing here?” They were near Kimura sensei’s office. Before answering she moved to sit between his legs and leaned back. Shige put his arms around her without even thinking about it.

“Waiting in case Yuya needs us.”

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Tegoshi was walking to Massu’s office. He was reluctant to go mainly for two reasons: One, even though he really, really liked the doctor, or maybe because of that, he felt nervous whenever he was around him. He tried to use his “crazy personality” as usual but for some reason he wanted the doctor to see what he was really like. He really wished he was normal around him.

Reason number two, he was feeling the signs of an “episode.” They weren’t really seizures or episodes as some doctors called it, but it was as good a name as any. He felt that crawling under his skin; he had been hearing the murmurs since that morning in the showers with Shige but hadn’t been sure at the time. He was already feeling that weird, numb sensation on his limbs. Something was coming and he knew from experience that all he could do was endure it, hope he didn’t hurt anybody and hope that by the end of the experience he still had his friends and that they wouldn’t avoid him or try to get rid of him. But they had time. He would end the session and then go get the drugs and hope they were enough to keep him contained, if not completely knocked out.

Tegoshi knocked on the door and Masuda told him to come in. Masuda tried to think of him as “the patient” to keep the distance in his head but it was hard to remain distant. Tego… The patient came in and jumped on the chair where he crouched.

“So, this is a new office, ne Massu?” He had tried to get him to add sensei or even san, again to keep a distance, but it had been no use, he was stuck with Massu. And he would never admit it, but he kinda liked it when he called him that.

“Yes, what do you think?” He asked just to start the conversation.

“It’s smaller, but it is brighter, so it suits you.” Perceptive little bugger, that had been exactly why he had changed offices.

“Glad you like it. How are things with you roommate?” The patient seemed to think about it. It was odd, usually he moved around more, talked more and with a high pitch voice. Today he was more serious.

“Good. He shouldn’t be here. He’s completely sane,” he said matter of factly and not for the first time.

The patient was starting to look nervous. His eyes moved suddenly to the side. He was rubbing the back of his neck. Something was off.

“Are you okay, Tegoshi-kun?” He heard the doctor say. He didn’t answer. It was coming, he had been wrong, there was no time. He couldn’t be in a closed space with just the other man, he might hurt him. Oh, God! It was coming!

Tegoshi was breathing hard, murmuring something.

“Tell her, tell her.” That’s what he was murmuring. He was still crouching on the chair. Masuda came closer to the patient and saw his eyes do something weird, like they had changed the shade of brown, and for a second they seemed completely black. It had been just a trick of the light since it was just for a second and now they were normal again.

“Tegoshi-kun, listen to me.”

“Don’t come closer, get the drugs, put me out.” Shit, Masuda had forgotten the drugs, the chief had warned him, but he had never needed them before and he had started to think they were something the other doctors used when they didn’t know what to do with Tegoshi.

Tegoshi looked at him with utter terror in his eyes. “Then get out and lock the door. Leave me in here and call the rest… just… hurt…”

Masuda had to calm him down. Tegoshi was starting to shake, badly.

He reached out and grabbed Tegoshi’s face in his hands: “Yuya! Listen to me, just focus on…” Tegoshi went instantly still and they stayed for a few seconds like that, just looking at each other.

“How did you do that?” Tegoshi asked

It was gone. It had been about to start and it was gone. The moment the other man put his hand on him, Tegoshi heard a loud scream in his head and then it was all over. It had been the doctor, he was sure of it. No murmurs, no crawling sensation, just him, Masuda and Masuda’s warm hands on his face.

“You were just having a panic attack,” Masuda answered as he removed his hands. Tegoshi came barreling against him before he could stand up, and even though the other man was smaller, Masuda lost his balance and ended up sitting on the floor. Immediately after that he felt Tegoshi’s arm around him and his head resting on his chest, the trembling was not completely gone yet.

“Please, stay a little longer. Don’t leave just yet. I don’t want it to come back. Just a little longer, then I’ll leave and you can ask for a transfer to another patient, but let me stay a little longer, just a little, please?”

“I won’t leave you, it’s okay,” he whispered and hugged him back tightly with one arm while he soothingly caressed his hair.

There was a knock and the door opened. It was Kimura sensei. He saw them both hugging and Masuda caressing Tegoshi's hair and soothing him.  When Kimura came in Masuda didn’t know what to do. He couldn’t just push Tegoshi away after the almost attack but this didn’t look good.

It was Tegoshi who pulled back. He did so hesitantly at first, tensing, like waiting for something to happen. When nothing did he said: “I’m sorry. I’m fine now. Th-thank you.”

“Erika came to get me,” Kimura sensei said.

“I’m fine now, really. I… I’ll call you if I feel… bad again.” Kimura sensei nodded but didn’t say anything.

“They are waiting for you. Go.” Tegoshi nodded and started to leave but Kimura stopped him. “G is back. He is okay. I knew you would be worried but he is fully recovered.”

Tegoshi bowed his head. “Thank you.” And then he left the room. He started running. He had to talk to G, fast.

"Wait, he almost had a panic attack. We have to make sure he's fine."

"He said he was fine,” Kimura sensei answered calmly. Masuda had to struggle to keep his face neutral. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing.

Masuda had noticed things he hadn’t questioned, yet. The suicide rate was through the roof. Patients were transferred with no apparent reason other than Kimura sensei wanted it that way. And he could not forget the treatment his patient and his "band" received. He knew they ran around pretty much as they pleased and that they struck deals with nearly every employee, though Masuda wasn't sure what the bargain was exactly. He knew Kimura sensei knew they ran around the facility, even around closed up and out of limits places, but he never did anything to stop it and wouldn’t let other doctors stop it either.

He couldn’t stop the questions anymore.

"What is going on here?" Masuda asked.

Kimura sensei lifted his eyebrows.

"Well one of the patients, Erika chan, told me Tegoshi-kun wasn’t feeling well today. I thought I could come and check on him, so I did and found you both hugging on the floor."

Masuda looked down. That almost shut him up. Almost.

"He was having an attack and I calmed him down. I was talking about the lack of control some of the patients have, including mine, and I know who G is and you practically told my patient, who has enough problems, to go talk to a violent criminal."

"I didn’t tell him to go speak with the man, just that he was okay. He used to be his doctor and Tegoshi-kun is very fond of him, I just eased his mind."

"But you know he and the rest of them go to his cell and do nothing about it."

"Them?"

"Oh, don’t give me that. You know who they are. Everybody lets them do anything they want; I just don’t know what leverage they have on the doctors and nurses. You have to know this and I don’t know why you don’t do anything about it?"

"Because they are not hurting anybody. And let me go back to a previous point. Tegoshi-kun was having an... attack and you calmed him down? How exactly?”

Masuda would have resented the implication in that question except Kimura sensei didn’t seem accusatory, just curious.

"I put my hands on his face and told him to calm down."

Kimura sensei lifted his eyebrows in surprise. "And he just did?" Masuda nodded.

"How did you two end up on the floor?"

Masuda did his best not to blush but he did a little.

"He just needed comfort," he finally said lamely.

Kimura studied him with his eyes a little narrowed and pursing his lips.

"I was advised you might be able to help him I was not sure, but apparently, you can. You are right he and his friends do get some special treatment. They earned it, in a matter of speaking. That is why I'm not taking you off Tegoshi-kun's case in spite of what I saw."

Masuda was about to protest but Kimura sensei lifted a hand to stop him.

"Don’t say he's just a patient. You may help him a lot more in the future. Yes, you may save him in the future. You and I will have to talk soon. Not now, but soon." Masuda was not sure whether the doctor was talking to him or more to himself, he had spoken in a very soft and thoughtful voice. Then he just walked out leaving Masuda confused and with a lot more questions.

Hope you enjoyed this new chapter. I'm sorry it took so long, hope it was worth the wait... at least a little xD