Desicion made...
Thank you. Really. From the bottom of my heart.
All my lovely darling LJ-friends. Thank you for sharing so much. Advice, thoughts and personal experience. You have NO idea how much that have helped.
Reading all your comments as they came in choked me up yesterday and the day before that. It didn't help that yesterday I was pretty much crying my eyes out everytime I tried to breastfeed Alexandra. (Says the woman who usually have a problem crying... WTH, hormones?!?!?!??) Thank gawd for peting73. And all you guys. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your personal experiences and thoughts. No words for how much that meant to me.
The frustration and sadness over the fact I can't do this natural thing for Alexandra properly is quite heartbreaking.
But it is survivable.
I read up on a TON of websites yesterday and today (between feedingtime and naps), from swedish hospitals and various forums for moms online. And you know what? I am NOT alone... Not something you talk about, but I am NOT alone. And it was SUCH a relief to read. I even found a book about bottlefeeding written by a Doc that I booked at the library, so I can pick it up later.
Today we went to the nurse, "our" nurse, at the Child welfare center that we go to with Alexandra. Apparently a very experienced nurse. She took one look at me and asked me how I am doing... and I just told her all. She bluntly told me that if I am not doing good, Alexandra will take up on that... so it is important that I care for myself to, sleep properly and not stressing up over breastfeeding. We talked about how she was doing, and she said Alexandra was a very gorgeous and active baby, so even though she hasn't quite gained as much weight as she should, she is still doing perfectly fine. And she has had mixed feeding from the start, both breastfeeding and formula.
Having talked with her, it was quite easy to finally make a decision about what to do. Amazing what a couple of naps and quite a good nights sleep can do... (Even if I only sleep 2-3 hours a go...)
I'll continue as I do right now, with breastfeeding AND bottlefeeding during the day and only bottlefeeding during the night. That will, eventually, make my breasts dry up, stopping the milk from coming in anymore. But you know what? I'll be fine with that. I will. At that point, she'll have gotten all that she'll need from me. And the rest she'll get from the milk formula.
Desicion made. And I feel quite good about it. :-)
Again, THANK YOU EVERYONE who have given me advice and your thoughts, both here and on Twitter. THANK YOU!
(Randomly, I have updated Alexandra's LJ today with more photos, if you wanna see? Right here: mini_viking.)
All my lovely darling LJ-friends. Thank you for sharing so much. Advice, thoughts and personal experience. You have NO idea how much that have helped.
Reading all your comments as they came in choked me up yesterday and the day before that. It didn't help that yesterday I was pretty much crying my eyes out everytime I tried to breastfeed Alexandra. (Says the woman who usually have a problem crying... WTH, hormones?!?!?!??) Thank gawd for peting73. And all you guys. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your personal experiences and thoughts. No words for how much that meant to me.
The frustration and sadness over the fact I can't do this natural thing for Alexandra properly is quite heartbreaking.
But it is survivable.
I read up on a TON of websites yesterday and today (between feedingtime and naps), from swedish hospitals and various forums for moms online. And you know what? I am NOT alone... Not something you talk about, but I am NOT alone. And it was SUCH a relief to read. I even found a book about bottlefeeding written by a Doc that I booked at the library, so I can pick it up later.
Today we went to the nurse, "our" nurse, at the Child welfare center that we go to with Alexandra. Apparently a very experienced nurse. She took one look at me and asked me how I am doing... and I just told her all. She bluntly told me that if I am not doing good, Alexandra will take up on that... so it is important that I care for myself to, sleep properly and not stressing up over breastfeeding. We talked about how she was doing, and she said Alexandra was a very gorgeous and active baby, so even though she hasn't quite gained as much weight as she should, she is still doing perfectly fine. And she has had mixed feeding from the start, both breastfeeding and formula.
Having talked with her, it was quite easy to finally make a decision about what to do. Amazing what a couple of naps and quite a good nights sleep can do... (Even if I only sleep 2-3 hours a go...)
I'll continue as I do right now, with breastfeeding AND bottlefeeding during the day and only bottlefeeding during the night. That will, eventually, make my breasts dry up, stopping the milk from coming in anymore. But you know what? I'll be fine with that. I will. At that point, she'll have gotten all that she'll need from me. And the rest she'll get from the milk formula.
Desicion made. And I feel quite good about it. :-)
Again, THANK YOU EVERYONE who have given me advice and your thoughts, both here and on Twitter. THANK YOU!
(Randomly, I have updated Alexandra's LJ today with more photos, if you wanna see? Right here: mini_viking.)