soooo for some unfound reason, ive been having these feelings that i suck at my job. its been like killing me for some reason that- again- i know not where they come from. and today i just got a notice informing me im invited to be a DT (designated trainer). am i nuts ( Read more... )

lil died. i dont know why but im strangely disturbed and really upset by it. im not sure how she died- i think she might have had breast cancer. either way, it makes me sad. i hated working with her but she was always pretty funny and it was good running in to her a few times a year. i remember seeing her at bingo when me and my mom took my ( Read more... )

ugh. i feel sick. me and andrea just ate so much food. food is gross ( Read more... )

sooo february is already off to a peculiar start ( Read more... )

ehhh i never update anymore. i miss the days when i could write 10000000 things about my day, have a nice beefy entry adding commentary about my thoughts, feelings, and love interests. ugh ( Read more... )

this year is starting off horribly.

wow. i cant believe im back to this. same thing as last year. except now im fat and last year i was skinny. so it sucks even worse ( Read more... )

im drained. sapped. exhausted. miserable ( Read more... )

sooo monday night i took ronnie and andrea to dinner at the cheesecake factory. i thought the chicken in my jambalaya was raw but i didnt say anything and i just pushed it all aside. and tuesday morning i woke up dry heaving and having other gastrointestinal problems. and i had sore joints and i could barely move. so i went to work at 10am ( Read more... )

in twenty minutes, it will be december 1st. one more month until 2008. i thought i would never see the day. literally, i didnt think i would make it this year. as wierd and as melodramatic it sounds, its true. the first six months of this year were the worst i have ever lived in my entire life. i dont even know where im at now in the progress ( Read more... )