Another update:

[kriscynical]

Angeline was taken back to the hospital today and now she's here at the house with us in the guest room. She's making absolutely no sense whatsoever and earlier today she was ranting and raving like she was completely out of her mind. While getting her settled in she was talking about noodle people and asking where my dad went in her dream

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[theteaqueen]

You know where I am if you need me.

I'm thinking of you, babe. ♥

[neko_sama3]

I meant to send this three days ago when you posted that Angeline had chosen not to continue chemo. Then I had a treatment and have spent those days in bed, not able to get to the computer. I can't imagine the pain you all are going through, watching her die but more chemo just to prolong the suffering isn't much of a choice either. It sounds like she is beyond reasoning but just in case, ask her about Jesus. I'm not sure how you feel about Jesus but she is facing eternity and this would be the chance for you to see her again, well and in her own mind. The simple truth is Jesus came, and died and rose again so that we all could go to heaven. Tell her this. I really hope you don't think I'm preaching 'cuz I'm not. But it is time for her to choose.
Purrs my friend!

[kriscynical]

I don't get why so many people have assumed we want her to suffer through treatment just for two more months. We don't. We watched her go through chemo the first time and we saw what it did to her. At the time that she left the hospital AMA all we wanted her to do was let them set up hospice care for her and give her the medication needed to keep her comfortable until the end since she wasn't doing treatment. We wouldn't want her to go through that much suffering just to get two lousy months when it would be misery for her the entire time; we're not that selfish

[neko_sama3]

I'm so sorry that my comment created pain. I really didn't want that to happen. I am also very sorry that your Grandmothers funeral was about fire and brimstone instead of all the lovely things in her life.
Contrite hugs.

[kriscynical]

It's okay. We're all stressed out.

[fenikkusuken]

Is she on morphine now? Because if so, that was definitely the drugs talking. We cared for my aunt at home for several weeks before she died, and if the dose was just a bit too strong, she was swatting at little pink mice and talking to imaginary train conductors. That was preferable to the profound pain she was in if the dose wasn't strong enough.

Thinking of you.

[kriscynical]

When she was at the hospital, yes, but not now. Now they have her on pain meds that are only a little big stronger than the Rx I have for my cramps (7.5mg vs. 10mg). She's still not coherent because her blood oxygen level was 76% as of yesterday.

[fenikkusuken]

I hope that Angeline's suffering ends soon. The situation breaks my heart, because I've been there.

Give your mom, dad and Angeline extra hugs for me.