Do you remember the time you broke your foot in the shower?
And for an hour
I wheeled you around the hospital?

Or when we held hands whilst we slept
And I wept at a film about a genie.
I wish I could see you.

When you went away all you left behind
Were some green stains on my ceiling and a nihilistic rage
Our star of song and stage defrosting on the ( Read more... )

For the very last time, I slept at 24 Berkeley Grove last night. I lived there for 3 and a half years. Cookie the Cat came to see me, unaware she won't see me again, and I started bawling ( Read more... )

I really struggle with life tbh. I feel like I'm constantly putting on an act that I'm doing okay when the reality is that underneath my mask I'm finding it difficult to just exist. I don't know how long I can keep up this charade. Feels like it would be so much easier if I didn't exist.

After a disastrous interview a month ago, I've taught myself:

Edge Animate
InVision
Balsamiq
Ableton Live
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And learned about:

Agile Project Management
SASS
Wireframing
Prototyping

...In short, there are positives to failure.

I'll drown my beliefs

To have your babies

I'm not living

I'm just killing time

Your tiny hands

Your crazy kitten smile

And true love waits
In haunted attics
True love lives

On lollipops and crisps

Just, don't leave

Don't leave.
Don't leave.
Don't leave.

Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
But your love Wrecks me.

But I can't let go.

I can't let go.

I lay you to bed, and then we fall finally asleep.
The riflemen salute the sky. Shots echo in the canyon; A scar in the land that won't heal.
And all I keep thinking is that, fuck, I'm gonna miss you.

2004 was a bad year, 2014 was a bad year, I am worried about 2024

I don't want to get a job ( Read more... )

I've seen you laugh and cry, live and die
I follow you into obscurity
And there ain't no turning back