Second verse, same as the first

[konora]

As a preface/warning: I'm frustrated beyond measure lately, and keeping a shaky grip on my nerves most of the time, so I'm not exactly coming at this with the best, most clear-headed perspective here. I'm aware I have no real reason to complain about a damn thing... which just makes it worse, really, but whatever.

I'm encountering, for perhaps the

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[alanahikarichan]

Oh, darling. >:

*cuddles!*

It's not juvenile to want friends. If someone doesn't want to be friends with you because you're asexual, then they are a total and complete idiot, because you are darling and sweet and fun and funny.

Taking inspiration from your favorite characters isn't pathetic at all, not if they help you and give you strength.

And if it makes you feel better, cuddling onto the couch with ice cream isn't bad, either. Punishing yourself for wanting to detox, to relax and indulge yourself, isn't going to make you feel better.

*sends you all the internet loves and kisses and wibblefaces*

randomly-- I didn't know you were asexual! <3 When did I miss that memo? XD

[konora]

<3 It's hard to comfort myself with ice cream when I'm dieting. But perhaps I can have a couple of scoops anyway.

I haven't exactly advertised that I'm asexual because it just never comes up. It's a little more complicated than that, but... yeah, essentially. The variety of "I have sexual urges but no desire to act them out with other people". etc etc. :P

[synaltern]

I fully agree with the above/first commenter (hi there!) that it is not pathetic at all.

I understand where you're coming from with not being able to read people. I have only an inkling of where my issues with it comes from, but if it helps any, it did start clicking (a bit >.> depends on the person; never could read my mother - she sends all the opposite signals) as I got older. Sometimes the brain just ain't capable of finding the right pieces for the puzzle.

Nothing wrong with pulling inspiration from a fictional character at all -- especially when that character is a strong character that possesses a clear sense of purposed and the capability to back it up. How awesome is that? I know of very few irl people I'd want inspiring me. They're all so...human...and prone to all the associated foibles

[konora]

There's a lot to respond to, so I'll just say... thanks. :)

I haven't asked anyone. From what I can tell, it's just that everyone in this particular circle needs prodded into responding to or initiating anything... which I'm not used to. Since I've been in a less than stable mindset lately, it's done nothing for my self-confidence. But I'm working on trying to be more reasonable.

[senshicalico]

OH HEY. Are you me from this past year? 8D

[konora]

I NEVER KNEW YOU WERE ASEXUAL THIS PAST YEAR

[senshicalico]

I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DEAR FUCKING GOD.

[senshicalico]

btw jay thinks he's visiting me and we're going to have sex. crobar get?

[shiome]

I'm sorry you aren't feeling well o3o It's hard to perfectly integrate into a new environment, six months aren't a long time, all considered. That doesn't make you awkward or a failure, you're just adapting still (and you have plenty of time to do so).
It's also normal to want company! unless you're me and you just... hibernate with a computer and a good amount of blankets. Start small? Even just small talk.

And take inspiration and motivation wherever you can. :B

[nemi_chan]

It's not pathetic, it's not failing, and it's not wrong

[konora]

Mmm Oxycontin.

Megatron is also my thinspiration. Or rather, fitnesspiration? I DON'T KNOW IF THERE'S A TERM. I pretty much just want to be able to be kick down doors like a badass.