It’s so hard.... I don’t want to go through this anymore. I just want to give up. I just want to let go and stop struggling. Ironic....it’s easier to act strong when other people are around than when you’re alone. You think it would be the other way around it life. You would think you would break down in front of everyone... I don’t get it when ( Read more... )

buck everything....i hope things don't stay this freakin crappy...

So basically, I'm up at one o'clock in the morning...and no one is online....and i'm really bored....and i have to get up at 7:30.....the end.

I feel lost. I mean....misguided, undirected, pathless. Everything has just become a routine...a motion of moving through life's events. Perhaps I've lapsed into this routine in hopes to avoid everything set before me these past few months. Sleepless nights, energyless days... I have, in return, become nothing and done nothing. And I find it ever ( Read more... )

I had tender feelings that you made hard

But it's your heart, not mine, that's scarred

So when i go home, i'll be happy to go

You're just somebody that i used to know

You don't need my help anymore

It's all now to you, there ain't no before

Now that you're big enough to run your own show

You're just somebody that i used to know

I watched you deal in a ( Read more... )

For some reason, I am so exceedingly angry. Yes, I've noticed that of late I have been more angry than is healthy. But I just am. Angry like, Gah!-what-the-heck-is-going-on angry. I shouldn't be. I just got back from a missions trip in Mexico with my church and family. I should be so filled with joy. But I'm not. And I don't know why. Exhaustion? ( Read more... )

what the hell is wrong with everyone.

Well, things have taken a different turn lately. Yes, I was frustrated, angry, grumpy. Mostly, I believe, because I didn't have answers to certain things, because I saw situations gradually slipping out of my control, because I felt like I was failing. And while all those things haven't been solved, I have found peace through certain situations in ( Read more... )

So, basicially I'm angry right now or....gah! That best describes me right now. Gah. I really have nothing to be angry over...I just am. Like, the dumb infomercial my brother is watching in the other room. It makes me just want to bash the TV in. Or, my hair that is half wet, half dry right now....angry ( Read more... )

Today is yet another wasteful day. There is so much to do, yet I'm so lazy and I don't want to do any of it. So, I sit around, all the while thinking, I should do something. Yet, I lack motivation. And my day ends up being pointless. So, there is no hope in resurrecting this day...I simply just let it pass by and hope that tomorrow I have more ( Read more... )