I somehow always knew Prague was going to come back and hit me hard years after it ended ( Read more... )

I've decided not to work at work for a few minutes and instead update the livejournal. You see, I have come to the conclusion that I am sub-consiously trying to get in trouble, or fired becuase i'm bored. Its an emotional retaliation, something i'm quite familiar with becuase I was quite the emotional rebel in my youth ( Read more... )

its cryptic to listen to a song and remember a girl you used to do drugs with, and then remember she is a mother now.
I have spent so much time these days thinking about my past. Was I really happy? or just convincing myself I was.
since when have I not needed a sidekick? a hero? a partner in crime?

is it sad that the best moment of my day is taking resin hits out of my old bowl listening to sugar on my tounge by myself?

I've come to the conclusion that there are very few people I am going to miss when I move.
I'm over it. I just need to get out of here and this.

Some people I work with have much nicer voices, and are more patient than I am. I assume they also don't get so upset by the customers, and while i'm throwing bottle caps against my cubicle wall they probably think i'm over-reacting, but I am kind of used to that.

This time around, I think going to therapy is really making a difference. I know this because I am telling her things I really don’t want to. Something happened this weekend, and after talking to her about it, a lot of other things made sense. It is completely surreal to realize these things about myself, my past, this life I’ve created, and ( Read more... )

I've got a new plan.
And it does not include worrying.

Do you ever get the lonely feeling that dries out your throat? I used to get it a lot when i was little, and today its there, all day ( Read more... )

This is funny. YOU fill in the blanks about ME ... even if you don't have any idea. But first post a blank one out to all your friends so they can return the favor to you ( Read more... )