Can I just tell you that I really really like this fic. The not so quiet despair that Jen's going through and then poor Jared...I really don't know which one I feel worst for.
I liked how you included Chris into this part and Jared's explanation...I'm excited to see where this goes and what exactly happened to Jensen to make him feel/think like this...it had to have been something more than just the drugs.
I like how you showed us both sides of the incident in the bathroom - Jensen's anger/issues with himself and Jared's concern that it might be suicide. Just goes to show how that difference in how things are perceived is present in all actions. Interesting thing to think about when relating to others in RL.
This one is going to be a real angst fest, I can tell.... but I don't mind.
Well I thought it was important to see what Jensen was thinking because the original concept was just Jared's POV only it felt terribly wrong.
Glad you like angst! *g* I tend to be an angst whore and both my current ongoing series are filled with it. (Heh made my beta cry when she read chapter two of my Being Sam and Dean Again story) I promise there'll be PLENTY of angst and pain to come!
You can tell me you like this as much as your little heart would like! *g* I think I feel equally for both of them. Poor Jensen is so lost and Jared is so damned in over his head and yet he refuses to stop
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This verse is so amazing. It has such insight and a truly gritty feeling. When I see updates, I both look forward to them and shudder with trepidation at what they will reveal.
I am glad you're still following. I have to say I understand how you feel though because while I lvoe writing it I hate it at the same time. I am getting to the point where I have to start getting into the really bad parts in a chapter or two and I am NOT looking forward to it. But I am sure the musi will work everything out.
I have a couple things to work out in my head before I start the telling of JEnsen's story so the next chapter is well... happier. :)
This fic is just.. wow. i dont even have words to tell you how much i love it. i really like the newsest chapter, i think it's my favorite so far. keep 'em comin.
Glad to know you are following along and you enjoyed this chapter. Hopefully the next one is even better! *g* It came out different than I expected, but I think it will be good because after Chapter 4 the really heavy stuff will be starting.
>> and with Jared showing signs that maybe, just maybe there was more to this than just friendship?<<
How is it possible that Jensen thinks this when Jared has said:
>>“And as whole as you say I make you feel...God Jen, don’t you know that you make me feel the same? The last three months have been completely fucked! I hated it, every fucking second. Not because the people weren’t nice, not because the location sucked, but because YOU weren’t there too. ‘Cause really man, without you I just can’t enjoy it.<<
>>“You’re my friend, you’re my life, and you’re my it. That’s why I’m here man, because this is where I want to be.<<
>>My life, Jen, is yours. Nothing in my life comes before you - not my career, not my friends, not my parents or even my dogs. It’s you before everyone and every thing.”... )
Oooh, Jared and Chris really do have a difference of opinion. I'd love to know more about Jensen's fall out with Steve, cause that's the only way I can tell whether or not I think Chris did the right thing. But seriously, I figure that if Chris was unable to support Jensen in the way he needed it then he was better off gone, cause if he stuck around he'd probably just make things worse. I was worried that Jensen had tried to kill himself too, that was a mean little trick, I love it. :D Really love this *runs for more*
HA! Umm... since I know by the time you get my reply you have gotten past chapter five and hopefully figured out Chris is SO NOT one of the good guys in this Verse. This version of Christian is more than a little self centered and really has not ever been a positive effect on Jensen especially before JAred came along.
HA! Go ME on the swerve!! Yeah, did that on purpose. *g* I like a good cliff hanger now and then. Guess I got Kripke blood in me.
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I liked how you included Chris into this part and Jared's explanation...I'm excited to see where this goes and what exactly happened to Jensen to make him feel/think like this...it had to have been something more than just the drugs.
*hugs*
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This one is going to be a real angst fest, I can tell.... but I don't mind.
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Glad you like angst! *g* I tend to be an angst whore and both my current ongoing series are filled with it. (Heh made my beta cry when she read chapter two of my Being Sam and Dean Again story) I promise there'll be PLENTY of angst and pain to come!
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I have a couple things to work out in my head before I start the telling of JEnsen's story so the next chapter is well... happier. :)
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i dont even have words to tell you how much i love it.
i really like the newsest chapter, i think it's my favorite so far.
keep 'em comin.
Cant wait for moreee.
<3 :)
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heavy stuff!
Grah! Can't waitt.
:)
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>> and with
Jared showing signs that maybe, just maybe there was more to this than just
friendship?<<
How is it possible that Jensen thinks this when Jared has said:
>>“And as whole as you say I make you feel...God Jen, don’t you know that you make me feel the same? The last three months have been completely fucked! I hated it, every fucking second. Not because the people weren’t nice, not because the location sucked, but because YOU weren’t there too. ‘Cause really man, without you I just can’t enjoy it.<<
>>“You’re my friend, you’re my life, and you’re my it. That’s why I’m here man, because this is where I want to be.<<
>>My life, Jen, is yours. Nothing in my life comes before you - not my career, not my friends, not my parents or even my dogs. It’s you before everyone and every thing.”
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I'd love to know more about Jensen's fall out with Steve, cause that's the only way I can tell whether or not I think Chris did the right thing. But seriously, I figure that if Chris was unable to support Jensen in the way he needed it then he was better off gone, cause if he stuck around he'd probably just make things worse.
I was worried that Jensen had tried to kill himself too, that was a mean little trick, I love it. :D
Really love this *runs for more*
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HA! Go ME on the swerve!! Yeah, did that on purpose. *g* I like a good cliff hanger now and then. Guess I got Kripke blood in me.
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