so, things have been pretty good lately. we played a pretty good show last weekend, and ive been having alot of fun with the band. i really miss carly and kaylin. but i cant call them. my phone is turned off. ill call as soon as i can.

she left with roses.

so i went to see dillenger and daughters tongiht. i thought it was an excellent show. and i saw a few old friends i hadnt seen in a while. one i didnt see was liz. because nataly lied to me. and thats bullshit. anyways. i met this girl who is a friend of rynes....and she had gastric bypass surgery. she lost 90 pounds in 9 months. 90 pounds!?!?!? ( Read more... )

bartending school monday. i cant wait to start. it seems like its actually going to be alot of fun. and afterwards....a good job. actually, a great job. im totally excited about the whole thing. and i love gumbo mama. shes the best girl ever. and i love kaylin. sigh" she really is beautiful. i wish i could see her right now. that would make me ( Read more... )

im sorry i havent been around lately. ive had so much bullshit going on. right now im trying to find a place to live. my mom is going to help put me through bartendind school so i can get my own place. i dont know if ill ask chris to move with me or not...ive had some bad experiences with roomates. but ummmmm....maybe i will. because its got ( Read more... )

so recently....ive lost my home and most of my friends. but im alright, everything is going to be alright.

so elijah quit the band. so we WONT be playing the 22nd. i cant believe he quit. its such a fucking asshole thing to do....after i fought for so long to get him in. but he doesnt care. it doesnt bother him that it really hurts my feelings. and he doesnt mind that it destroyed the one good thing i have going for me. because hes happy. so i guess he ( Read more... )

urgency is all i feel this day. im losing time. im running out of what little time i have left. my youth feels like its slipping away. im an adult now. and im scared. i want to be 12 again and do it all over again. so maybe id have a chance at happiness. maybe i should stop dwelling on the past, and focus on the future. but if i do that, wont i ( Read more... )

and the thing that hurts the most is that he never deserved her. why is it that she loves the boy that hurts her most. nice guys do finish last. unless she says otherwise, im moving on. i cant stand to feel so sad all the time. if she loves me and wants to be with me....its now or possibly never.

so we are shooting for the 22nd. the band that is. we can be ready. i know we can. i called ryne...and we talked about video games. i miss him a lot. my best friend always and i rarely see him. hes moving to austin soon!!!! fuck yeah. im going to go. and maybe come back when i have something of meaning. cigarettes and a bottle of water. mmmmmmm.

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so 25 dolla was rocking tonight. so was horse the band. i really liked them a whole whole whole lot. going to a good show makes me want to play so badly. i wonder if ill feel like that when im 80, listening to a cd. if i make it to 80. im under a lot of stresssss right now. to get a job, make everyone happy, impress her, write something decent for ( Read more... )