I'm really sorry to hear that you're being separated from someone who is such a big part of your support system. That really sucks. Is she going far, or will she at least be still in your general vicinity
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Thanks. I don't really know the area where I work too well, being that I don't actually live there--but obviously I'll be at my school and she'll be at hers, and since she works later than I do it's not really relevant in terms of being able to meet up after school or something. I'm sure she'll still be around, but as spoiled of a brat that it makes me, it's still a scary thought. After all, how many friends say 'oh yeah, we'll totally keep in touch' and then never hear from one another ever again? Quite a lot.
And oh, I've done that too--just suddenly thinking of something horribly sad or upsetting and next thing you know you're crying. It's...pretty awesome.
Honestly, I just hope I can stop this bullshit I have going on and get back to where I'm actually helpful to others or something. Right now it doesn't even feel like it would matter if I were alive, because I'm just another person sitting on her ass in front of the TV all day, or lying in bed, or doing absolutely nothing but things that benefit herself. It's disgusting, and
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Yeah, she did; she was a really established figure at the school, too--and even in Japan where teachers and staff at schools get moved around all the time, there's always that point where like...if they haven't been moved by NOW everyone figures they must be safe where they are, and that's where she was. I'm sure it's going to be hard work-wise for everyone else, too, because she was of course the one that really kept the school running, and knew exactly what needed to be done and when. It's going to be hard to fill those shoes, and I'm sure it's going to be hard for the members of the faculty who need her help to do things more regularly than I did to not just be able to hand something to the new secretary and not have to worry about if she knows how to deal with it
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Oh man. I'm really, really sorry. It would be hard enough to lose a work-friend like that if you had some advance warning, but to have it announced so suddenly...?
You aren't alone in the crying-in-public thing. I saw at least one other person comment that they have had that experience, and I know I have. I actually did it twice at one job, and the first time was my third day on the job. MORTIFIED. I know it doesn't really help knowing all that, but maybe down the road it'll help somehow. I hope that you can find someone else to be close with at work. :\
As for the facials..I say go for it! I 100% believe that life is give and take, in a lot of ways. I think you've done an awful lot of giving recently, and it's probably good for you to do some taking. I think you're really hard on yourself (which I understand because I'm the same way), but maybe try to push any guilt to the side and just..do some good stuff for yourself. You deserve it!
Thanks. And yeah, that was the thing--it was just like BAM. And of course since it was my last day at the school, I really didn't have any time to get used to the idea, or...whatever.
Even at times where people kind of expect that someone may cry, it's still mortifying, for sure. Especially when you're at a place where you have to leave everything that may possibly be eating away at you as if it's not happening, and put on a happy face all the time because it's your job. Then when you have no one you can really tell about these things, they just...keep getting worse and worse. I'm sure you're familiar with that feeling, too.
I don't know where you're getting that I've been doing a lot of giving lately, but thanks for the kind words anyway.
I'm so sorry to hear about this!!!! I've been there, and I know it's not cool at all. I know the first month or two without her is going to be super hard for you. When the girl who looked out for me at work left us, it was the end of the world and the days afterward were SO MUCH LONGER. There was no sunshine or relief at all. After 3 months it's getting better, but it's not like it was. So I kind of feel your pain!
That was....not very optimistic. :/
I'm a fellow crier, too! I cry all the time, especially when I'm frustrated. The worst was at my old job, explaining to my boss (who was a giant male chauvinist pig) why I deserved a raise, and bursting into tears because he just wasn't getting it. I still feel like the biggest tool about that. :/ I wanted to fall through the floor!
I hope things get better for you. Sometimes we all need to be a little selfish. It's what people do. And sometimes that's the only way some of us will ever do anything nice for ourselves!
Hey, sometimes it's nice not to have someone shooting rainbows out their ass. XD I actually really appreciate the acknowledgment that it's okay for this to be difficult for me to deal with.
I think any sincere emotional outburst has the ability to make me cry--I've cried at pretty much every extreme emotion, as I recall.
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And oh, I've done that too--just suddenly thinking of something horribly sad or upsetting and next thing you know you're crying. It's...pretty awesome.
Honestly, I just hope I can stop this bullshit I have going on and get back to where I'm actually helpful to others or something. Right now it doesn't even feel like it would matter if I were alive, because I'm just another person sitting on her ass in front of the TV all day, or lying in bed, or doing absolutely nothing but things that benefit herself. It's disgusting, and ( ... )
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You aren't alone in the crying-in-public thing. I saw at least one other person comment that they have had that experience, and I know I have. I actually did it twice at one job, and the first time was my third day on the job. MORTIFIED. I know it doesn't really help knowing all that, but maybe down the road it'll help somehow. I hope that you can find someone else to be close with at work. :\
As for the facials..I say go for it! I 100% believe that life is give and take, in a lot of ways. I think you've done an awful lot of giving recently, and it's probably good for you to do some taking. I think you're really hard on yourself (which I understand because I'm the same way), but maybe try to push any guilt to the side and just..do some good stuff for yourself. You deserve it!
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Even at times where people kind of expect that someone may cry, it's still mortifying, for sure. Especially when you're at a place where you have to leave everything that may possibly be eating away at you as if it's not happening, and put on a happy face all the time because it's your job. Then when you have no one you can really tell about these things, they just...keep getting worse and worse. I'm sure you're familiar with that feeling, too.
I don't know where you're getting that I've been doing a lot of giving lately, but thanks for the kind words anyway.
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That was....not very optimistic. :/
I'm a fellow crier, too! I cry all the time, especially when I'm frustrated. The worst was at my old job, explaining to my boss (who was a giant male chauvinist pig) why I deserved a raise, and bursting into tears because he just wasn't getting it. I still feel like the biggest tool about that. :/ I wanted to fall through the floor!
I hope things get better for you. Sometimes we all need to be a little selfish. It's what people do. And sometimes that's the only way some of us will ever do anything nice for ourselves!
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I actually really appreciate the acknowledgment that it's okay for this to be difficult for me to deal with.
I think any sincere emotional outburst has the ability to make me cry--I've cried at pretty much every extreme emotion, as I recall.
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