And It All Comes Down To This...

[kidsnurse]

Title:  And It All Comes Down To This...
Characters:  House, Wilson
Rating:  PG
Genre:  Angst
Words:  2200
A/N:  My deepest thanks to blackmare_9, misanthropicobs, nightdog_barks, and perspi; they know why.
Summary:  House is in pain.  He thinks about what it's cost him, and he takes a hard look at the math.

Comments

[poeia]

That man is too damn proud for his own good!

And this was heartbreaking.

[kidsnurse]

that man is house--the pride goes with the territory. and... sorry for the broken heart this early in the day! ;)

[poeia]

That's okay. The Emmy nomination did a good job of healing it.

[kidsnurse]

and they snubbed Robert Sean Leonard, who took the crap they gave him, and turned it into something memorable. sigh.... [and did David Morse really deserve a nod for Tritter? but maybe it's best if we don't go there...;) ]

[alemyrddin]

Hi! I found your post on sick_house and I've just read this fic.
I liked it a lot, it's bitter and hurting but very well-written and in character.
I like your explanation about House intentionally incorporating "some of this cold, inhuman persona into his daily behavior-so that when the breakthroughs came, the change in his personality wasn’t so blatant, didn’t raise worried questions from Wilson."
and the final line "He can always count on the pain."
Ow. It hurt. But it's a good kind of hurt!

ps. Sorry for the double posting.

[kidsnurse]

I like your explanation about House intentionally incorporating "some of this cold, inhuman persona...

and i think that explanation's gotta be at least partially true, canon-wise. i'll never forget wilson's "you've changed" speech at the end of Detox. chronic pain changes people, intrinsically. house needed to acknowledge that.

[mystcphoenxcafe]

Greetings!

True... so, why are Cuddy and Wilson so surprised? House is male, essentially alone, and it's only been, what, five years or so since the infarction? Acceptance seems to be a reverse sine wave that takes time to completely Journey through. Longer for some than others. And there don't seem to be any shortcuts, no matter what those around you might wish.

Not to say that there aren't things that House could be doing to help himself that he's not doing, but hopefully that will come in time as well.

-Katrina

[arhh]

*slaps Wilson* very hard. Please bring understanding!Wilson back soon :P
*hugs House then shakes him a bit* Tis a terrible thing indeed when pain is the only constant in your life, other than intractable pride.

[kidsnurse]

when pain is the only constant in your life, other than intractable pride

excellent, excellent point. and i love the term intractable pride.

[mystcphoenxcafe]

Love the 'intractable pride' phrase also... *tucks it away in literary basket for later*

Sometimes, though, the pride is the only thing you have left, so you cling, even as it's killing you.

-Katrina

[triedunture]

This is good, IC, realistic...all pluses.

[kidsnurse]

thank you! (yeah, i'm just a wee bit proud of it)

And It All Comes Down to This (Dr. Fantabulous)

[anonymous]

That was the perfect summary of why House and Wilson are the way they are. That explained it all, especially the end: "Now the Vicodin has betrayed him. And he's betrayed Wilson...He can always count on the pain." Perfect statements of logic there, makes absolute sense. Loved it!
Also, when will there be a sequel to The More Things Change? I'm very excited about that :)

Re: And It All Comes Down to This (Dr. Fantabulous)

[kidsnurse]

Also, when will there be a sequel to The More Things Change?

ahh... there's one in every crowd! ;) the word sequel causes me to break out in hives these days. sigh....

but seriously. i am working on it, and i do anticipate that the first chapters should go up no later than the first week in august.