I'm back (more or less) and slowly getting my bearings back

[kianspo]

I'm finally back online, more or less, since it's only every other hour that it seems to be working. My page seems to have some trouble with coding, but I am told that I am the only person who sees it. I dunno, do you guys see the word [info] instead of my userhead? I do, but I am told others don't. In any case, a small price to pay for being back

Comments

[fairyniamh]

*thumps your noggin* Haven't been your friend long... but make as many unhappy or happy posts as you want.

As to where to channel your unspent energy (anger)... I always use fan fiction as a way to vent whatever emotion I might be feeling. If I'm sad I write something that will bring myself and others to tears. If I'm angry I'll pick a character to hate and make others hate them just as much (if not more.) Good moods bring out the sap and laughter. Where sleep deprivation brings out shit that I didn't know I had in me.

Yes I know... I am truly evil because I want someone else in this world to feel my moods when I feel them and I am completely unrepentant about it.

Otherwise if you have someone you can vent to (even if it's online) vent and get the situation out in the air and breath. Just don't bottle it up. *hugs*

[kianspo]

Yep, writing is a great outlet. Used it a lot as such, too. I guess, it's all about the degree. My concentration is slipping every time I try, but maybe I'm not trying hard enough.

Thanks, bb. *hugs*

[feanna]

No advice (because I suck at people stuff) but I can tell you that I'm sorry that your life sucks right now!

I totally hear you on the mornings and nights thing too! When my life sucks my sleep cycle gets screwed for the simple reason that I don't want to go too bed until I'm fall down tired because I know that everything'll come to the surface as soon as I lie down. SUCKAGE!

Are you reading this fic:
http://community.livejournal.com/kirkspock/1464948.html?mode=reply
?
because we're about to get the to the finale.

There's also this rec, which seems like it strongly depends on taste and I haven't checked it out yet, so take with a grain of salt:
http://syredronning.livejournal.com/1450559.html?mode=reply

[kianspo]

Right? You lie down, and you think, and think, and think...

*hugs*

Sure! I love LNSB, and I honestly believe that this fic has no equals in the fandom. Quality-wise, characterization-wise, plot-wise. It's my treat, now that there'll be updates every day. :)

I might check it out. Not a big fan of vampire stories, but if it's that good... ;)

Thanks, bb. <3

[feanna]

Well, I have no idea if it's any good yet personally, because as I said, I haven't read it

[kianspo]

Hey look, you've given me so much to check out. :)
Will definitely do that.

[aprilleigh24]

You've totally activated 'Nurse!April' which… well she tends to be bossy so just a warning.

This is all very practical type advice because the emotional stuff has to be dealt with on its own terms -which have little to do with your terms- because emotions are a bitch that way

[kianspo]

You have no idea how grateful I am right now. You made me smile just now, and God, April, that's not an easy feat these days. You're like a fairy godmother. :)

Oh, I"m very bad. It's 4 a.m. right now, so what do you think of my sleeping habits? *facepalm* I know. I did mention yoga class, right? I liked it so much, I was pumped the whole day afterwards. I definitely plan on continuing with that, it was awesome. I don't know where it has been my whole life. Maybe there is stuff I can do in the interim, because you're right, falling asleep is my biggest problem. I just lie down -- and it doesn't happen.

Drinking, well. A glass of red every other night sums it up, I guess. I've cut down lately, since I'm observing a diet. Which, point for my will, right? I'm usually one who stuffs herself with comfort food of the worst possible variety...

Your recommendations make perfect sense, and I'm gonna try to hold myself to it. Not much to lose, is there?

You're awesome, my dear nurse. You know that, right? <3

[antesqueluz]

I'm so sorry that you're going through a rough patch right now. Just remember that is exactly what it is - a patch, not forever. Give yourself permission to feel what you feel - anger, hurt, frustration - even with yourself, but try not to live there. I know it's much easier said than done. I know it may be trite and cliched, but this too shall pass. It really will. And in the mean time, feel free to rant and vent and let it out. Take care of yourself, dear. *hugs*

[kianspo]

I know. This time next year, I'll hopefully be in a happier place. Thanks for making me feel better.
*hugs*

[kianspo]

It does help, more than I realized it could. I guess it should have dawned on me much earlier that I live a pretty lonely life, but somehow, this fact managed to escape my attention up until this point. Go figure. No one to blame really but myself. And it's not like people didn't warn me.

Yeah. I'll get back to writing the moment my work issue is resolved and I can find enpugh concentration to force myself back into the fantasy realm. I do miss it.

Music would be great. I liked the song, though I'm not feeling vengeful, TBH, like at all, but it did amuse me. It's true and cute at the same time.

And you, my friend. Oh dear. Guess you prove time and again how limitless your patience is as you keep dealing with me. *squishes you* Thanks. <3