So, since I'm cheap....I went with LJ Plus. I really just wanted more icons, and the small banner at the top, and all the way at the bottom aren't so bad ( Read more... )

If you believe a being that has the infinite knowledge to create even one of the wonders of this reality, could at the same time be so petty and hateful as to punish one of its creations for acting how it was made to act, you've been tricked and lied to. It's hard to accept God as a complete unknown, with unknown motives, but you must. Please drag ( Read more... )

When someone close to you, or maybe, if your sensitive enough, someone close to someone *you* are close to, gets very sick, in a life threatening manner...it kind of pulls the veil of modern life away, and allows you to see things as they are for a moment. I'm not talking about the whole "Oh..that's horrible!" type response, that isn't real. That's ( Read more... )

So, after almost 12 years of having no interaction with my family, I've recently been in contact with one of my sisters, and mother. I found out a few things about my family, the major thing was that my father had died. I hated him, and all the horrible things he had done to me, my sisters and my mother...and when I had heard of his death...I " ( Read more... )

After what may have been the most depressing....empty, fucked up, surreal ass part of my life in a long time, I managed to pull myself back into the Bay Area. I cannot begin to explain what the hell happened, or how fucked up I am from it, even now. I lost around 40 lbs, and I'm basically going to be crawling , both spiritually and even physically ( Read more... )

Time is so strange....we are limited by the moment, and the one choice we are destined to make based on our personalities at that very second.
Free will?

I don't think so.
Time and the mind have us trapped.

So, I had this dream ( Read more... )

I've made the decision to go on ahead a get a car. My fear of driving, well..hmm, my fear of driving caused because I get really freaked out from other people making mistakes when *they* drive, has to be overcome. I lock up, and have to pull over every time someone cuts me off, or something along those lines. I cannot operate anymore without a ( Read more... )

What if someone had one thing they loved, one thing that made them happy?
Then, this person realized that they would never be good at it, never anything other than mediocre? And this was all they really had, all that was left in their life?
The one thing that they thought they could always count on to make them happy, now taken down....

Well, random things ( Read more... )