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Just Enough to Know its There
So, it's finally here. It's Saturday and lo and behold:
I can't sleep.
Why? Oh the usual. Still, I have a great story for everyone. For starters, I went to Don's show and he was really amazing. It takes a lot of courage to get up on stage and sing like he does. He's a cool kid. We went back to his place afterwards with a couple people who went and ( Read more... ) -
Bummer
Josh and I broke up ( Read more... ) -
It's Only Tuesday
I woke up this morning because I had a dream that was absolutely not expected or wanted and I'm just incredibly pissed off. I want the weekend to come immediately. I'm just going to be completely honest and I don't care if it offends people, because this is bothering me and I need to get it out. I keep saying it, but I honestly mean it. I fucking ( Read more... ) -
Unbalanced
All of my fears and insecurities have been really coming out lately. As much as I want to exude confidence, it's not really happening. It's all pretend. I've been trying to keep my mind busy- finding people to hang out with or things to do. Still, when left on my own, things start getting shaky...quite literally.
I'm not fully out of this darkness ( Read more... ) -
A Moment to Ponder
Since I've gotten back to Bristol, I've been so busy, I haven't really had time to stop and think. In a way, I'm glad, because I know that when I'm left to my own devices, I think myself into a puddle of sad. However, now that my friends have left the basement, boy is probably passed out, and it's nearly 1 in the morning, I realize that shit is ( Read more... ) -
Shit...now what?
So I should really be sleeping, but in all honesty, I need to get a few things out there first.
I'm going back to my mom's house this week. I think it's time for me to just be the bigger person and accept that she is a failure at things and we're going to have to deal with it. We never see each other anyways and I'm perfectly okay with accepting ( Read more... ) -
I Need a Haircut
Last night, I freaked out again. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. This isn't like me at all. I'm trying really hard to keep my cool, but I'm failing miserably ( Read more... ) -
Friday the 13th
I'm not superstitious, so whatever happens, happened because shit happens. haha
Anyways, it's been a couple days since I had that huge freak out. Things have since then cooled down a lot. I'm glad, because I don't think I could have handled that much longer.
It doesn't seem as if I'm doing anything to improve my life here at Ryan's house, but it's ( Read more... ) -
Pinky Promise
There's so many things I want to talk about. I want to say so much, but I can't. I want to spill out my secrets, because I've always been so honest, so open. I feel like a coward for hiding, but I know that it's for the best. I can't express how I really feel, what I really want to do, because it'll destroy me and everything I've come to love. I ( Read more... )
