Comments | kayla1906: ME

kayla1906

ME

May 28, 2008 21:45

Here I am a new member trying to find my way around this site as I am also trying to find my way in life. I have grown up in a very repressed family, and am in the process of becoming my own person. I have just finished my first year of college, and am hoping to one day become a medical doctor concentrating in women's health. Leaving home for ( Read more... )

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Intriguing.... dhyvd July 27 2008, 21:06:22 UTC

Followed you back here from a post on "masturbation togetherness", anyhow, I'm interested in these "sneaky" things you did ;).

I feel, not really repressed by environment, although I am in some ways, but sort of that I grew up thinking it was better to be distanced from everyone... I think I picked up on the apparent introvertedness of parents who were both teachers, but on the other hand, I've come to realise that it's more that they were roleplaying as conventional parents in order to stablize the home environment...

Strangely, I never even though of that until now... but I started my journal in order to grow creatively, and it has helped because it's been a port-al through which my writings have spawned, and some have become ground for forming friendships and links and learning more about different perspectives, influences, imaginary and practiced "worlds".

So, welcome to LJ! And stuff.

Re: Intriguing.... kayla1906 July 29 2008, 02:30:10 UTC

Thanks for the welcome and stuff. I grew up in a very strict catholic home with parents who did not trust me at all. Probably a lot of it was justified from their viewpoint. However, I never accepted their religion, or any religion, so I did not see it that way. For the most part I don't think I was a bad kid, but there were many things I was not allowed to do so I had to learn to sneak around. I spent a lot of time in the library after school reading about different religions including pagan and atheist. Today I consider myself an atheist. During this time I also read a lot about sex since it was one of the most forbidden things. I would pretend to go to confession and mass, but instead go someplace else. I also went to communion without going to confession. All this was religion kind of stuff. Since I was seldom was allowed to date I had to meet guys at odd times and places. This led to sneaking off to have sex. I also used times like this to smoke pot. These were not a lot different then most teeneagers, but it was ( ... )

dhyvd August 3 2008, 23:47:29 UTC

That was a nice summary,
sorry it took me so long to reply,
I'm sorta lagged behind when it comes to Internet stuff nowadays, so I only just relised I had a reply.

I'm not sure if I can summarize my life so far... but I'd like to move forwards with an open, progressive focus.

kayla1906 August 6 2008, 03:44:04 UTC

I understand not being on the internet all of the time as I am not here everyday either. Keep your focus, decide where you think you are going, then do what you think is necessary to get there. Do not feel that you have any restrictions or you have to satisfy anyone other then yourself. I know that is dificult when you do not have the support of your family and are actually going against their beliefs.

dhyvd August 15 2008, 17:03:06 UTC

For me, I think the hardest part is deconstructing a goal into the steps needed to get there, because I tend to focus on the most novel/interesting steps, even if it is just a simulation in my mind, and then lose enthusiasm when I realise how much I'd have to do, and how little I tend to do on a daily basis ( ... )