I hate the fact that no one listens to me. I always feel like the odd one out. I hate that my husband lately seems to have the attention for everyone and their mother (literally) but has almost none for me. Not to mention my girl flat out told me she wants him and he pays far more attention to her anymore than he does to me. Even times when we'll ( Read more... )

Oh the joys of being a mother of an infant! My little Chloe is now 7 months old and is smarter than I ever could have hoped for but god, is she stubborn! She's got my attitude and at only 7 mths that's a scary thing. She already can hold her own bottle, say quite a few words (dada, baba, mama), sit up on her own and all sorts of things. She's ( Read more... )

So I guess things are finally turning up. I got married Aug. 28th to a wonderful man that makes my world so much better. He takes care of me like i've never experienced before. We've been together for over a year and things are just getting stronger and better between us, rather than going downhill. I'm due to have my second daughter on Oct. 30th ( Read more... )

How is it possible for one person to experience such bad luck? Am I truly nothing more than a useless fuck-up? It's not for lack of trying that's for sure. I manage to make every decision except for the right ones. Am I stupid? Does there come a point where you're supposed to just give up? I feel lost and drowning. I can't stop crying. I can't ( Read more... )

He said to me, i don't want to be with because you have a child. I don't want to pick up where someone else left off. I want to start my own family. Lovely. Thats a bit of honesty I think I could have done without. Honesty is great don't get me wrong but in this case I would have preferred "i'm moving to china tomorrow." Fucking Jeremy. Just when ( Read more... )

I feel like shit. That is the most eloquent way i can put it. I'm coughing and my head hurts and my throat hurts and my nose and ugh. I hope to god Asia doesn't catch this. I would feel so bad. I'm cold. Under 2 blankets in sweats but im freezing.....

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i was just thinking about how much i miss my old friends in FL. Tom especially. Called his house no one answered damn it. Bobby and Zach and and and I don't even know. So many people that i miss very much. I would like to get in touch with them but i don't even know how i would go about it....

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