i'm feeling like i did back in october.....and i have no idea why all of a sudden everything is so bad again. after so long of thinking one thing, i don't know how to think another way. that probably only makes sense to me, but feeling like i'm gonna break down every time i hear a song or see something that makes me remember something is really ( Read more... )

yeah, i'm still not ok

i don't know what i'm doing with my life. why can't i just move on? i feel like i really need to now, but i still can't. how long is this supposed to take?

maybe tonight will be the beginning of a new chapter in my life. one where i don't depend on him for my happiness. i doubt it, but i'll try

i'm starting to forget some things.....like how things feel and what things used to be like......

i don't like it

my heart hurts.....when can things be better so that i can be happy again????

i can't believe it's been one month. i almost didn't make it to practice this morning.

i really just want my life back. none of this is right and i know it's not. i know what i want and how things should be. and i'm not ok

life is so confusing. i still have hope, but i wish that i could see into the future so i knew what was going to happen. i don't know how long i can be like this. and i thought that i had everything figured out. i had my life basically planned, not specifically, but the big things ( Read more... )

my heart is aching right now. not just for going through the death of someone close, but for having to watch some of the people that mean the most to me go through such a terrible 6 days. all i want to do is sit somewhere and cry....

someone very close to me is in the hospital right now. if anyone that reads this could please just say a prayer for this person and the family, that would be great. thank you

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO HAWAII..........I AM!!!!!!!! Zach and i booked our lodging and flight today. i'm sooooooo excited. i hope that we can make the most out of going since i may never go again. this summer has been amazing so far and it's getting better and better!!!!!!