Its been a long time since i've been on here. weird ( Read more... )

-Ryan or Daniel... not that its really a feasible choice but i'd like it to be ( Read more... )

-ticketed for drinking ( Read more... )

so apparently I give off an air of liking girls? I don't know why because I don't. Well i mean maybe i could, i'm open to that if it were to ever happen but I have never been attracted to girls. I just don't really trust new guys. I feel more comfortable with girls. which I suppose is understandable, I just have so many self esteem issues with ( Read more... )

I don't get on here much anymore. mainly because I have a hard copy journal that I write down anything and everything in, I make lists, write stories and talk about my life in general. plus things have been getting a bit hectic emotions wise. I'm incredibly excited to move on saturday. But for completely different reasons, I'm very scared of Friday ( Read more... )

hung out with Sarah last night (and yes the site will be up... when I have time from work) and went to see once on this island, which was pretty good. I thought. but then after I saw my second grade teacher, whose daughter was the young Timon. That woman was the most influential teacher I ever had in the past k-12 years of school. I mean its crazy ( Read more... )

so after a long slew of arguments, silent rooms, and staying out of each other's way, my parents have decided they will try to work it out. I can't really decide if I'm happy or not. I mean on the one hand, I obviously want my parents together. On the other, they aren't happy themselves. So do I want them to be happy or me to be comforted?

I had a kickass time last night at the gorge with a bunch of friends. more fun then I've had in a long time.
then I got home.

My parents are divorcing.

I realized something today.
I've been deluding myself about how huge I have gotten. Its actually sort of sickening and I can't believe I let myself get this huge. I've been doing something about it but now I'm going to do more. I won't be disgusting anymore.

I am starting to feel like I'm getting back on my feet. I'm not around alex and madeline. I don't feel smothered and I'm smiling more. I feel like graduating high school came at the right time, because at least now I can really tell that i'm letting things go, rather then have the evidence of what i did wrong thrown back into my face.