wacky

[katherinetlyoso]

im not sure what im feeling half the time anymore. sorting out my thoughts trying to figure out if im content, happy, sad, lonely... im not sure how everyone else does it, but i seem to have more problems than most when it comes to just being happy. and sure im making plans, meeting new people, forming relationships, eating good food, seeing new

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[ernielg]

i really like how you write kath. i actually read most of the things that you do. it's so expressive; you have so many emotions that you articulate so well, and you're really brave when you speak. i think you say things that others are afraid to say about themselves. i know what it's like to feel sad and unfulfilled, but also at times i actually am really happy. i know.... i know you are too sometimes, and i hope you figure out how to feel that more often. i feel like some things in life are so difficult and confusing and can easily bring someone down. i feel like you're always growing up, and have already grown up so much more than anyone else. and you still remember so much of the good stuff about being young. this may sound pretentious or i dunno what, but you really are amazing compared to most people.

[katherinetlyoso]

i appreciate your words ernie.. YOU make ME happy =) and thats why I CHOOSE YOU! like i have tons of pokemon...

i cant express myself like how id like to.. stupid people out there with those brains that can form sentences so witty and comprehensible. makes me jealous! but at least its a good read. i am more brave than others when i speak but i think its cuz i feel sort of disconnected from the world? and myself?

hmm and you.. i think u are generally a happier person than me. and yes, i must find the things that make me happy. hard hard!

i have grown a lot since college and plan to grow until i become a fat giant! but i dont kno about everyone else... i believe all people have potential. and howabout you ernie... ur amazing too right? and have grown a lot? i hope to be as amazing as you one day =)

[ernielg]

katherine, my little baby, i think it's funny how you are kinda disconnected from things... like you're watching things happen, or that the consequences of things don't matter. i guess there are good and bad things about being like that.

i actually think that i'm one of the best people at pretending to be happy. i think it takes someone else who is depressed to really see that. but i kinda feel like if you act happy and think happy and laugh and smile in spite of everything, it really will help make you happier.

i'm a giant fat man. and i hope to grow more. i think there're long journeys ahead of us still...