Ugh... I hate how I think differently every day ( Read more... )

I really feel like Holly's changed drastically.  The eclectic, elegant beauty I knew has seemingly transformed into an alcoholic party girl.

I hear all of this stuff about all of her ridiculous partying, and it comes straight from her lj.  Getting smashed 4 days a week.  Dancing with random guys... god knows what else.  Fuck, for once in my life I ( Read more... )

I went for a good run yesterday.  Granted, it wasn't the longest distance, but it made me sore and I took that as a good sign.  Being sore reminds me of the good old swim team days... so did the urge to gorge myself after the excercise.  I think today, since my lower body hurts,  I'm going to complete the experience and swim tonight so my upper ( Read more... )

My 19th birthday was a total botch.  I'm getting sick, and the day was perpetually gloomy.  Don't get me wrong, I truly do appreciate all the happy birthday txts/calls/facebook messages (some of which were from people I did not expect), and the really thoughtful cake my new college friends got for me.  I wish I could have properly shown how happy ( Read more... )

College feels better now... more familiar, more comfortable.  I'm not so homesick, though I do miss the group at home a lot.  At this point there's just one thing left to sort out ( Read more... )

Today (the 11th) would have been 8 months...

Or is 8 months...

Or was 8 months...

I don't know...

In spite of the agreed halt in interaction for an undefined amount of days, I decided it was the right thing to do to wish Holly a happy 8 months in case she did see things that way.  I didn't get a response.  Maybe it's because she doesn't feel the same ( Read more... )

 Sometimes drastic transition is difficult ( Read more... )