The Wake of the Walk

[karmasoup]

DEPARTURE

There’ve been so many problems in my life that could have been solved by walking. So many cases where it was the right thing to do.  And certainly more situations than I care to admit to about which at times since I’ve wished I’d done it sooner.  But it was always a hard decision to be faced with, and never the easiest option available

Comments

[kittenboo]

This really touched me, as I have struggled in similar ways.

“ And I also found the love of my life. Mostly because I wasn’t looking for him. I was able to experience unconditional love for the first time when I became able to love myself the same way. I realized then that everything else I’d known up until that point had only been just a mere shadow of what was possible.”

That section brought tears to my eyes. I am learning this right now, and am daily struck by the idea that I just didn’t know any of this was possible. But also maybe we had to go through some of the things we did, in order to get here now.

Thank you so much for sharing. I’m so glad you’ve made it to the other side.

[karmasoup]

Thank you, dear. And you as well. ❤️

Edited because the winky kiss mobile emoji looks a creepy Munchian scream on the computer!

[roina_arwen]

You’ve gone through so much - thank you for sharing your journey. I’m glad you and Minion found each other. Hugs!

[karmasoup]

Me, too! Thanks.

[adoptedwriter]

Hugs...So glad things have turned around for you. Well-told.

[karmasoup]

Thanks.

[millysdaughter]

I cannot envision any world where I would abandon my children.
Your ability to forgive her is amazing!

[karmasoup]

To some extent, I don't know that I ever really had to work to forgive her. The notion emblazened on my brain about abandonment was entirely subconscious, as I didn't ever realize we'd been abandoned until years later when my brother told me. I remember her calling us all to her and issuing a tearful farewell, explaining why she had to leave (though I don't remember the details), and I remember the child welfare people being at the door - I thought for the first half of my life those two things happened at the same time. I had memories of her being absent, and wishing she was around, but my brain had squeezed the gaps together, and I'd just thought she was always working. So I didn't grow up feeling abandoned on a conscious level, it just worked itself into the way I reacted to others in a way it took me some time to understand

[banana_galaxy]

My parents separating is part of why I didn't want to abandon my "love" in my marriage. It's dangerous when it's not even really recipricol, and you don't even notice. It can be a hard lesson to learn. But it's great that you were able to grow and learn.

[karmasoup]

Yeah... that whole frog in water effect is a bitch, ain't it? Glad you also found the strength to jump.