[Backdated log: Week 19, day 2] Might know how it feels

[mistyredhead]

Who: mistyredhead and pinktintedgamon
Where: Raisato, Exorcist compound
When: Week 19, day 2, right after this thread
Style: Prose, present tense
Status: Closed
Rating: PG as of now?
Warnings: Maybe some swearing? Should be fairly harmless, will add if needed.

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[pinktintedgamon]

"What?!"

Glancing up from the shattered mess that his Hitomi had become, Raikou belatedly remembers to check the pure, raw rage there in his expression - even if he can't hide it from reflecting in his gaze.

The concerned expression checks him more than anything though, and he forces himself to draw a deep breath before dropping back down to sit on the steps once more, apologizing, "Ah, I'm sorry, Lavi. I shouldn't have lost my temper like that."

[mistyredhead]

The sharp response does surprise Lavi a little even if perhaps it shouldn't have, and he takes a step or two back, blinking. He recovers quickly, though, and at the apology and how tired Raikou looks, he just has to smile lightly, perhaps a little knowingly because it feels like he knows this kind of tiredness. It's clearly emotional.

A confused one, maybe. "Don't worry about it," he says and shakes his head as he moves to sit down next to Raikou, draping his arms over his knees. "What's going on?"

[pinktintedgamon]

For a long moment, Raikou simply stares up at his friend before the man sits down on the step besides him, laughing humorlessly as he murmurs a simple, “It’s complicated, as per usual.”

He waits for a second, unsure how much of the situation he could or should say to Lavi, because he’s not sure how to explain the situation without giving away his current not-really-married-to-Kanda status to the man. In the end though, he has the feeling that whatever compulsion from the gods that is controlling this marriage thing will smooth over any questions Lavi may have about his own marriage…

…and maybe plant enough doubt to keep him from sleeping with Lenalee.

Because he’s pretty damn sure the woman was - or had been before this - relatively untouched. So he sighs and rests his elbows on his knees, fingers laced loosely between them. “No matter how improbable something might sound… you think you can listen objectively? You’re just… probably the only one I can trust with this, right now.”

[mistyredhead]

You do realise who you're asking, right, Raikou? If Lavi can listen objectively? Well, the answer to that is an easy one. "I'd be a lousy Bookman otherwise, wouldn't I?" he asks with a snicker, leans a little more on his knees. "Shoot."

A part of him wonders how he can still consider himself a Bookman if he's married, but he pushes it away as something stupid. Why couldn't he be? Sure, they shouldn't make any commitments and all... But it should be fine if he's married, because why would he even go that far if it wasn't fine? Really.

He's not that reckless.

[pinktintedgamon]

Raikou also has to chuckle a bit at that, his way of admitting the question had been a bit...redundant. Even so, it still takes him a moment to gather his thoughts, because he’s treading a fine line here and he knows it. He doesn’t want to cause issues for Lavi - or doubts in Lenalee - yet hers (or both) of their virtue is also at stake here.

Because they’re not like him, as a whole.

These Exorcists are from a more proper and restrained place. Sex and sexuality is not something he’s ever really seen them address, in any form, unless they had no other choice. And really - he knows it’s far from his place to provide this education.

So when he speaks, he does so slowly, and with an infinite care, because of the respect for them be does harbor in his heart.

“This… forgive me if it doesn’t make perfect sense, but there are some thing I, quite simply, can’t give you finer detail on, but…” trailing off, Raikou cut a glance to the side and gave his hands a bit of a shake, “Let’s say, for reasons beyond your control, you find yourself in